tersedak aku

if only ada office sendiri, kn (yg buleh kunci & bertudung tingkap opkoz). pastu palk dok sorg2, kalis bunyi suma...takdela tersedak2 kontrol mkn. opps. oh well we ALL know ladies hv their own rewards [cue music: feel like a woman by shania twain] yeah!

ok sketla rupe aku dr yg neh

hmm actually i just want to deliver my gratitude towards my mammah for tapaukan bekalan ns tomato dr penang for sahur (& yg seumpama dgnnya hehe). time kasey mak, kaklong xtau knapa time mkn td rs cm sebak sket2. mencik ah. ;<

dugaan bulan posa bagi yang single

had a dream last night. around 4 am

starring: me, aaron aziz lookalike, some girl xingat muka

plot:

me: been chased by aaron, who was chased by the girl. i kept avoiding him; the girl kept seducing him, but he seduced me. ada adegan kejar2. he even kissed my fingers. left foot fingers

how erotic

i used to think that was disgusting. but in that dream it wasnt.

in fact i guess that was the first time i can feel the pulse beating crazily against my chest and wrist.

woke up feeling restless - from the shock? or lust? or from frustration of failure to return the affection? 

btolke dreams are our suppressed thoughts and desires?

tapi  i havent berharap for any guy for quite some time jugak.

ohhhhoii bulan posa kot.

dirty dirty mind

haishh

26/07/12 update:
pikir2 balik, wadahel aku dok melunjur kaki dpn die lak? and whyyyyy on earth dengan relanya membiarkan that aaron touched me, let alone kissed the tips of my foot fingers???

day 5 (on job)

my new life has started last Monday
new job, new house, new routes, new friends (+housemates). so basically this entry is my first impression on those subjects.

job
*project officer (librarian), contract-based (T.T)*
- for this first week, i was taught & instructed to do some 'input' on indexing, which basically relates to 'inputing' the labels or keywords that we use in finding books, theses/dissertation, magazines etc. kalo kitorg x buat korang xley cari buku kt OPAC ok.  


my impression so far? boring jugak. the same task on and on and on. maybe its because i'm still in the phase of learning kot. dan tak stress jugak. tak pernah lagila dengar orang2 sini mngeluh pasal keja. time jadi cikgu dolu, the first day dah tau all the problems, working pressure suma. mmg btolla kata orang, keja pejabat setakat kt pejabat je. habis waktu opis, ciao. kena tahan boring jela. dan kepayahan naik pangkat huhuhu.

which made me want to rethink of my future path. i mean, for all this time, i've been whining about being an educator dengan perangai students, workload, class preparation etc. but those things keep u moving actually. along the journey, u'll be able to develop in many aspects. kena rajin skek la, berfikir, belajar, menulis, publish etc. ur job opportunities depend solely on u, kau rajin, kau naik. tapi keja opis macam aku sekarang ni, kau rajin, kau tunggu org atas kau pencen/blah, kau amek test/pegi interview, baru kau naik. tu pon kalau kau lagi outstanding dengan pesaing2 lain. susah kn.

apakah aku harus berpatah balik ke teaching???????????????????
i really hate the indecisive me.


(ok cam panjang, so yang pasal rumah dan rakan baru itu next entry lah. mau sambung buat indexing. erk kantoi)