humbled

dragged to the career carnival just to lure my unemployed brother to search for ANY job felt like shit. i've been to many and i know there wont be suitable offers for me. jauh. panas. sesak. lapar

then i saw my mother's hopeful glance

and my father's approval grin

and my anger melted away

Misz Rubz'z Song of the Month

BYou know that kind of music/song which u've listened to like 1k times already but u keep wanting to replay it again and again and again. u just cant have enuff of it sometimes it drives ur friends/siblings/colleagues to the wall

this is the song that i'm addicted to lately - since last 2 weeks +/-
a new song by Wonder Girls from their latest album Wonder World entitled WonderPets in Wonderland. TROLOL it would be a nightmare.

the name's Stop!, and yep, sung by that Wonder Girls who sang 'I want nobody nobody but you!'.
here's the romanized version of the song:

side note: methinks the lateral sound in 'geol' (1:03) is hilarious - its is my most favourite part. this song kind of reminds me of spice girls'. and i like spice girls => ohh those catchy classic pops

other songs that i like in this album: Nu Shoes (the only fully english song here); Me, In; 두고두고 (no idea how to pronounce it, but itsa pleasant song); Be My Baby and Girls Girls

credit for the video: kpopStrawberry

tak patut

i must be crazy
having a crush towards way way younger (like, wayyyy) male is a big no no, not in the past, not ever
dhla student (sepbek xajar)
sbb simpati. rs seorg lelaki itu seksi bila he has endured hardships and become stronger, maturer and wiser in return
tp underage
gilo
pedo
mgkin aku dh btoi gilo dokwat esemen org
fuck myself for being desperate for not having a well paid nor PERMANENT job
fuck its almost 1pm zemohs gonna come here to fetch to berjimba @penang.

agak2 dia layan rap tak

tadi mak masuk bilik
aku ingat dia nak chek aku tgh batpa pastu kondem (slalunya kalo conscious aku akn ttp semua windows yg lagho2 dan tinggalkan yg err.. kurang lagho)
so td aku pon konon2 bkla Word konon2 nkstart buat esemen kwn dia (da abes blajaq pon still kna wat esemen org, sungguh tekanan.  n sungguh xley pakai graduan OUM ni HAHAHA sila terasa)

neway, aku lmbat start mmgla partly sbb skenyee keje las menet, tapi....bnyak kot paper budak kna tanda. 4 kelas tuuu. org lain 2 kelas ja. slumber buli aku yg bergelar gantian ni je.
stop whining. terus kpd cita mak tadi.

pastu dia stat mukadimah

anak mak ni dh besaq (senyum2)
ok. awkward. waddahel. kalo intro cenggini tak lain tak bukan....
nk tanya ni, ada kawan dak...
aku dh agak dahhhh
tongtangtongtang ada org tanya tongtangtongtang so tula nk tnya kalau ada tongtangtontang..dak aih..mak bukan nksuruh jadi terus, ya la org2 la ni kna knai dulu...tongtangtongtang
(dan seterusnya sampai habis hajat dihatinya sambil diselangi oleh eeeaaaoooiiiaaa aaa my in denial rengekan keluhan dan sesalan)


maka amekkau rap seketul:


MAK MAK MAK
TAK PERLU SEKARANG MAK
AKU BYK KERJA MAK
ESEI LAGI DUA KELAS XTANDA MAK
ESOK DH NK MASUK MARKAH MAK
ESEMEN CHU N KWNMU AKU BELUM SETAT MAK
LUSA DH NK HANTAQ MAK

O MAK MAK MAK
KAU TAHU AKU BKN MULTITASKER SGT MAK
TAU TAK MESTILAH AKU AKAN PIKIR2 MAK
WHY U TELL TELL ME MAK MAK
BKN KAU TAKTAU SBB SANGATLAH NAMPAK KOT MUKA AKU GAYA ANAK PLESIT SERABAI DOK WAT KEJA
TAPI KAU MMG JENIS XLEY SIMPAN MCM AKU JUGAK KAN MAK
WHY U TORTURE TORTURE ME MAK

U MAKE ME WANNA STALK EVALUATE ANALYZE DAT DAT..DAT..DAT AGHH...MAK!
U SHUDVE KNOWN I'M SO LAH FULL OF CURIOSITY MAK OI
ABES KEJA AKU MCMANA MAK
WHY MAK WHY NOW
WHY JUST RITE AFTER I DECIDED TO STAY UP ALL NITE 4 D ESEMENS

OH BARU TRINGAT, KNAPA TADI KAU TNYA BERAT AKU MAK
AGH AGH AGH MAK O MAK
RUPANYA SBB KAU NK DESCRIBE AKU KN MAK KN
SGT XPERLU MNYENTUH ISU MY THE VERY LIGHT WEIGHT KOT MAK
SAMPAI HATIKAU MAK




jadi begitulah. now back to bisnes.

i know! sangat takperlukot tyme2 neh. lagi 3hr je pon nk weeken nkbitau pape pown

ok ok ok da byk buang masa, sila  postpone reaction
now ialah masa utk tetpkan minda
FOKUS! siapkan esemen! esok smbung chek ketas! i can do it! yes i can! i'm good at writing! m good at finding info!  m good at last minute work! m good at repeking! m better than good!



...nak rait ketas ke nk wat esemen....

aku doa kau sedar diri cepat2

ukur baju kt bdn sndr la brader

kita xbrapa nk ada duit cuba buat cara xbrapa berduit

pandai2 la jimat

smp bila nktadah tgn kt makbapak

eh lupa abah ko jauh mna nkhulur

tp masalahnye ko dok TADAH KAT TABUNG ANAK BUAH AKU

asshole, tu semua utk lampinsusuubatbaju

bukan nkbela rokok kau, daily burger intake kau (sangat watdahel mcm xde ns)

tau buat anak silala pandai jaga

jgn japg makan pakai anak pon nkharap bapak ko pakmak mentua ko pulak

rentikanle perangai2 bodoh tu

aku doa sangat2 moga ko cepat sedar diri

kalau tak biar aku bela

aku benci kau buat blog aku mcm diari duri