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Showing posts with label hopeful. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hopeful. Show all posts

Monday, 29 July 2013

tukar angin lagi

genap hari ke-15 aku di tempat keje baru.

its taylors of the filthy rich y'all. budak dtg skolah mcm nkpi shopping mall. fancy, and with all the shorts in the world - skirts, dress, pants.
ok haruslah menjadi matang dan cool dan outgoing dengan menjadahkan cara pemakaian mereka.
tapi tulah, tak pepasal dapat dosa kering. sepbekla akuni pompuan - dpt ushar dgn critical eye & jealousy admiration. kalo jantan, takke tergugat tu. but i bet the jantans here are lali with all the display.

hmm not very good for a long time perseverance of iman kan. have to train the eyes (and brain)!

annnnnndd.....

the food
OMG . THE . FOOD

from franchised restaurants to cafes to bakeries to foodcourt (pricey even!) -- seriously mall like.
starbucks, old town, mcD, famous amous, subway, ayam penyet, their own student-managed-fancy-restaurant (temptations) etc...and many more (tak tahu the rest sebab tak habes pusing lagi) all packed in their commercial block.

tu baru 1 blok. tak masuk lagi these small eateries yang bersepah kt blok2 akademik. hot buns? freshly squeezed juices? milkshakes? SEMUA ADA ok. tapiiiiii yup, PRICEY. jgn harap nk mkn complete meal RM5 time sesak2 tu. gone with the nasi+1 lauk+1 sayur=RM 4. haruslah RM 6++

which memberi keazaman baru untuk bwk bekal ke sekolah. cuma kena masak sndiri uhuk uhuk

Saturday, 30 June 2012

metamorfosis: lumrah hidup

dalam hidup akan ada certain stage yg kita rasa mcm susahnya nklepas; bolehke aku hadapi ni? thats my situation now:
iaitu akan blah meninggalkan kg halaman jap lagi. mak aku la ni, nakpi harini sbb esok di nkpi Sogo, bley?

uh uh
babai keseronokan, ketenangan & kehangatan keluarga, rumah & udara penang.



well, i've been to rantauan since Form 1-Form 5 (negeri sembilan) and then university years 2003-2007, 2009-2011 (kl) but never felt like this before...hmm

this coming Monday (1st July 2012) i'll be starting my full time working days at UM. nervous nervous nervous! (partly because of the job title 'project officer': totally new)

am moving to a new phase of life now. need to be stronger than ever. wish me luck guys! i really need that.

#ya Allah permudahkanlah urusanku di dunia baru ini. cekalkan hatiku, temukan aku teman yang baik2. lindungi aku dari segala musibah, naungi aku dalam rahmatMu. aameenn#




babai nyenyet. maklong will be missing u. remember me, will ya?

Tuesday, 19 June 2012

whats the deal with UM anyway?

after the first stage (aptitude & english tests) and the second stage (interview)..........











I GOT IT
hehehehehehehehe

depa called tadi pagi bagitau:
...."jadi, surat tawaran ni nak datang ambil sendiri ke nak suruh kami pos?"


thank u Allah!
thank u mak abah!
thank u makndak n pakndak {and kak ina, kak ida & adk alip}!
thank u jannah! (my UM GPS & driver, u're d best)
thank u ajim and yaya love {and takim indirectly}!
thank u zaza & her kak {her kak's and family}! [lupa nama la kak...]
thank u interview busddies whose-names-unknown!

thank u family, thank u friends
all your physical/moral/mental aids&support
are deeply, sincerely appreciated

and of course the interviewers who hv seen the POTENTIAL in me


love u all lah!


(hehehe thinkin back of how hopeless i was after the interview; i wonder why they took me in, mayhap i should ask the Ketua Pustakawan later)


Wednesday, 13 June 2012

interview for librarian post: questions to ponder on

here are some questions that I remember from the interview with the UM last two weeks. starting with the one that brought the most stinging effect to me

question: why don't you further your Phd? you can become a lecturer
what i answered: i feel that i dont have the expertise to focus on in writing the theses, so i'm not confident in doing it yet
responded question: u're giving me the impression that once we've given u the training, u'll do your PhD and leave the the library to become a lecturer
me: (fcuk. why did i say that before)...em, actually i'm not interested in teaching, thats why i chose MLIS and not MAESL....

(why why why did i respond with this! i shoud have said stm like: completing a doctoral degree doesnt solely mean that u want to be a lecturer; it is one of the ways to become an expert in certain fields. wouldnt it be a benefit to the institution itself if they have an expert in a particular area? i could become an asset to this library instead)

question: have you ever been to the libraries in any other countries? if you're given enough revenue, what radical changes that you can do to your library
me: change the appearance, upgrade the environment...like having a mini garden in the library, as well as great toilets (yup, i've SAID this. uhhh)

question: what do you think of opening the library 24h? give pros and cons
me: quite ok, it's good especially for those who're doing a research

question: these days, people rely so much on the internet as their first source of information. how can you attract people to come to the library and retain them there
me: i can say there're 2 approaches to this. 1) if we cannot physically pull them to the library, we go to them; that is by developing a virtual library. 2) by being able to provide all materials and assistance needed by the students, like having liaison librarians who really really are an expert in that field and would be able to guide students from A to Z in their study and information retrieval. (duh... if only my words were as organized as this)

question: if there's only 1 vacancy, why should we hire you and not the other persons
me: (I REALLY HATE THIS QUESTION. dont u know how hopeless i m in boosting myself?) err..i'm a very curious person, (....yeah, like, THAT is your most valuable trait ke rubi oiiii) so i'll be willing to learn new things...bla bla...comfortable to work individually and in team...bla bla...


overall thought:

i was clumsy in the interview, there were three candidates with experiences there, so i wouldnt put much hope then. huhuhu

Friday, 1 June 2012

of Kenduri and Interview



1)Kenduri Menyambut Tetamu Menantu

last week was my dearest cousin's wedding and tonight, all of us are heading to Pasir Gudang Johor at 8pm for her "welcoming-the-daughter-in-law ceremony" (seswai tak kehkehkeh). the wedding is on Saturday = tomorrow; can u imagine: we'll depart by 8pm (HOPEFULLY. no delay please) and it's Permatang Pauh Penang - Pasir Gudang Johor kutub utara kutub selatan sungguh! so, 12h journey is expected. 12hours ladies and gents...and straight to the wedding.
oh my tulang belakang....huaaaa...
and oh, by 'all of us', i meant a 'busfull' of us. hey, it's the first daughter and we're pretty excited then. untunglah kan sapa2 first child yang kawen in a family, semua org beriye gitew

2)UM interview
neves neves neves

apparently i passed the UM Aptitude Test the other day (know no aptitude test eh? click HERE to read my rant about it). so, the next phase is the interview la kan.

it's supposed to be on last two weeks, but one of the candidates had to emcee for a national library thingy conference (the reason he emailed to all of us other candidates telling his activity is a mystery - to intimidate ke?). so, it's postponed to next Monday 4th June. as usual - no idea what to prepare, how to act - i mean, the reason why i didnt pass any of the librarian post interviews should be my lack of interview/personality-boost skills, right. right? oh oh oh i'm so so nervous....i badly need the job. 6 months without real permanent job feels like s*** like, like, a minion, a loser. i didnt spent the two years of my life to end up like this:- therefore precious Master scroll, thou better work the magic OK

so please God, if this job is truly my fate: please clear the path for me. make them see the capable hardworking industrious diligent dynamic charming side of me Amiiiin

Thursday, 24 May 2012

IIUM dihatiku: bulan Ramadhan


international islamic university of malaysia >_"


Ramadhan sepanjang master program
Rindu that particular good old time at UIA. Masjid penuh ja tak kisahla time tarawih or siang2. Pastu every day akan ada pihak yang sponsor berbuka dan aku la antara org yg ternanti2 makanan free tuh hehe. Complete set kot,siap kurma, air ngan buah bagai. Selalu main dish tu nasik la, tapi ada gak roti arab + sup. Yang penting boleh jimat secara pukal ok. Jimat duit, tenaga & masa dari dok belek2 pilih2 juadah berbuka. Lagipun aku kan self-sponsored dulu = no PTPTN nor wang saku from parents, jadi dengan adanya nikmat macamni, mmg aku bersyukur sgt2. Alhamdulillah, moga Tuhan panjangkan rezeki tukang2 sponsor tersebut. Bestnye dorang kan, dahla bley generate double triple pahala blanja orang iftar, siap kena doa dgn yang dibelanja lagi. (Hmm…hopefully one day I’ll be able to do so jugak)

Mende nak citenye, ruang tempat agihan makanan kat underground masjid tu akan start penuh dalam 6.45pm sebab pihak masjid tak bagi orang bwk balik bungkusan mknn tu takut ada yg amek extra. banyak chantek muka kau nk amek lebey. Jadi tempat makan tu akan sesak dgn orang2 yang duduk2 sambil tunggu azan. Kalau lambat, tempat xde & makanan habis. So aku biasanya dlm 6.00pm da terpacak kat bahagian pompuan demi mndapatkan port lepak yg best (i.e bersandar & bukan laluan orang).

ha nila ropenye iftar di masjid UIA di bahagian lelaki, kt blah ladies pon sama je. yang ni menu dia macam roti arab ngan sup. walopon nampak cikai, tapi kenyang, siyes. roti arab kau tau la kn, tebal & padat. ok la tu, kalo kenyang tahap lantakan nasik 2pinggan lauk sepinggan lain mmg tak ah, tu kau stakat buka posa je la, terawih ke mana apa ke mana

(pic copied from here)


Ok masuk part lagi best. 

Segenap ruang tu akan berkumandang dengan alunan muzik al-Quran sebab setiap yang tunggu akan baca tak layan dah org tepi depan belakang. Naturally, bila kita duduk di persekitaran macam tu, automatically kita akan terikut. Bayangkan kalau setiap hari (minus hari exceptional), dari 6.00pm – 7.30pm kau baca Quran…tu tak masuk time lain lagi, ha…tak ke byk page dpt cover. Time tu rasa berkobar2 nakhabis satu Quran, kalau tak capai target rasa ralat je. Memang nikmatlah dapat laju2 gerak page tu. Harus terpengaruh beb, nak2 pak2 mak2 arab tu mmg hantu Quran, dlm bus, LRT pon dorang taram. Oi loike =>

Hati  gelap, lidah berkarat

Tapi kan…sesuatu tabiat ni, bila lama kita tinggalkan, kadang-kadang susah nak di imarahkan balik. Bagi aku, perkara ni sangatlah applicable dengan situasi yang aku sedang alami – tabiat membaca Al-Quran ni lah. Sejak – sejak keluar UIA dah tak habis2 baca. Nak habis macam mananya, sehari nak buka Quran pon susah. malu dekat diri sendiri apehalla sombong sangat dgn tuhan. So, sekarang dh masuk Rejab, aku dok pasangla azam = akan baca Quran SETAKAT TERMAMPU SETIAP KALI SELEPAS SOLAT. Bukan apa, nanti masuk Ramadhan, bila tengok ‘eh, ada lagi half to go je nak buleh khatam ni bestnye bestnye’ jadi semangatla sikit. Bley chelen mak guwe yang mmg slalu khatam time bln posa itew.

TATAPI...

Mmg ah, mmg berkarat kot. Baca pon tak laju. [dahla lupa mana stop dulu - kantoi punya lama tak sentuh Quran sampai lupa tmpt -so aku pon start all over la kn. Tambahan lagi...ya Tuhan....memang liatnyeeeeeeeeeee nk menghadap Quran every time after solah. Setakat hari ke-3 Rejab ni, honestly lepas subuh je baca. Tu pon sebab bangun sahur, so sempatla kan. Tu pon baca tak seberapa, tak lebih 2 lai. Cane nak kejor yop kejor oii. 

Sedih tu memanglah sedih fikir2 balik - blog hopping, facebooking, youtubing, tengok korean drama series suma tu - punya ghalit tak sedar masa berlalu. tapi nk buat ibadat sikit, asyek2 tgk jam, asyek2 belek tengok progress yg rasa mcm 'OMG, banyak lagi ni' padahal baru sekejap tadi start (vs. kalo buat benda lagho selalu ingat 'alah, sikit jew, kejap jew lagi...' padahal dah berjam2). tapi tula kan, bila kita biasa ikut nafsu dan syaitan, rasa berat ja nak buat ibadat tapi senang ja nkleka dunia even kita sedar yang semua tu sia-sia --- tak bagi input bekalan akhirat pon. macam2 alasan timbul punyala liat nak beribadah tu

Nak berubah bukan senang. nak menjadikan Islam sebagai bukan setakat pegangan tapi juga habit bukan boleh dicapai dalam sehari dua. Once kita lalai, setan dok bertenggek la kt hati ni biar gelap gelemat. jadi aku harap sangat-sangat, bulan depan2, tahun depan2, takde lagi keluhan mengada2 diri sendiri yang terlalu leka seronok dunia tapi ibadat terabai. Aku harap sangat - sangat takde lagi karat yang dok balut hati, yang ada hanya Nur terpancar menerangi chewwahh. aamiinnn. 

masjid UIA - Sultan Haji Ahmad Shah Mosque - mahgrib view
see, why i miss uia? 
p/s: cekallah wahai diri. nanti mati xde maknenyelah kpop tu der
p/s/s: wishing for strength & patience in reciting the Quran alongside with the translation, bukan setakat mengejar habis from cover to cover

Sunday, 22 April 2012

test lagi


sekarang ni trend akan melalui first test dulu ek sebelum interview? hayo keringle poket gue...kena dtg buat test tu, pastu kalau pass baru pi interbiu. 2 kali kerja & sgt sgt merugikan diriku yg kurang income ini. tu kalau pass test, kalau tak, tak ke lagi rugi.

btw, kemarin (atau semalam ikut standard KL) chek pi test kt midah...ala... Malaysian Investment Development Authority...chek panggey midah ja la no, mesra a'lam sket. chek pi utk post pustakawan s41.

tu la nk habaq ni...test tu mashaAllah...punya chek tidoq taklena makan taklalu mandi terlebih basah dok pikiaq apalaaa depa nak tanya. depa ada la suruh telaah website midah & isu semasa. nakhabaq bagi, pasai ekonomi. maka chek yang takdak economic background ni memanglah berasa amat sukar sekali.

malam sebelum pi test punyala xlena tidoq chek. ya la, dengan nakbaca nota tapi byknya nota la yang baca chek. tapi takpa chek tau nota tu redo. mesti nota tu kata dlm hati nota dia 'kesian budak ni, penat dia datang dari penang jauh tu. takpela bia aku jela yg studi pasai dia' (ok whatever)

pagi tu chek pi dgn matlamat..'takpala nati aku bulat jela yg MCQ tu'.sekali tau apa yg kuaq.. ha, ini dia. chek tulis dia punya gist ja sbb chek xhengat ayat penuh depa

ESSAY ok essay
section A = choose 1 topic, write about :
1. something about tak ingat
2. malaysia's potential in one of the services sectors (tourism, education, heatlh)
3. how to influence a company to invest in a manufacturing sector in malaysia (chose this one, xtaula cana)

section B = write all (one in BM)
1. peranan pustakawan yg bertanggungjwab dalam penyelenggaraan koleksi perpustakaan
2. how can Current Awareness  Service act as an enhanced service of a special library

kesimpulannya chek berserah saja nohhh. ada rezki kena panggey chek bersyukur alhamdulillah. takkena panggey kalu chek bengang gak a redo dgn ucapan 'rezki kita ada di mana2, tunggu masa dia saja tuhan nkbagi'

Saturday, 31 March 2012

short notice Aptitude Test

just came back last night from the first stage job interview hosted by UM for librarian position (Aptitude + English Proficiency tests). and what's with the short notice? duh...

26/03 --- email received from Penguasa Pendaftar UM
27/03 --- closing date for attendance verification
29/03 
12.40am --- email read. Tried & failed to confirm in their website
12.56-2.10am --- watched korean drama for distraction. failed, slept miserably
6.30-7.30am --- too early to call 
10.45am --- overslept. frantically called the admin to beg for manual confirmation. THANK GODDDD mine wasnt an exceptional case so didnt have to actually plead. fyuh~
11.00am --- called zaza & zemoh for accommodation, confirmed to sleep at zaza's as zemoh went back to pekan. started to pack
1.30pm --- departed
30/03 
9.00-12.30pm --- took the tests at UM
4.30 pm ---  hasta la vista KL (& straight to free charkueyteow upon arriving; thanks cousin!) 

inevitably i blamed my poor lampi self for not being alert to the email in the first place which made the journey sooo hectic & compact. yela, mmg slalu wat keje last menet gakpon. 
BUT THEN a friend of mine who happened to be there said that she received hers on 23/03. ....... like, what? it's a 3-day gap kowt. so, i was the second choice, huh? 

grr...tak patut tau awak...dhla rumah sy jauh kena naik bus ekspress bagai. sepbek la sentiasa ada bus trn KL every now and then. sepbek jugak ada je back up tempt tidur @ KL. kalo sy dok sabah sarawak cane? xke penin kena beli tiket flight on d spot. u should be more considerate ma!

anyways, about the tests. 
1) the English test - comprehension (article on Einstein; intermediate, cloze passage; basic), grammar (verb to be; basic), sentence structure (combine sentences; basic) & composition ('travelling can be a frustrating experience' with 1001 keywords given; very the PMR like). 

2) the Aptitude test - more or less an IQ test. several skills were analyzed like logical, numerical, diagrammatic reasoning and even linguistic, etc. all 45 questions were MCQs but my oh my, some were totally very confusing - tu x masuk lagi yg xde idea lgsung. my post-research (mmg xdanla study before the kejadian) tells that this test is to assess candidate's innate abilities and potential for achievement. adoihhh 

found some of the questions online which i got them wrong (how frustrating is that?) :

1. A train travels a certain distance taking 7 hrs in forward journey, during the return journey increased speed 12km/hr takes the times 5 hrs.What is the distance traveled?

A.) 210 kms
B.) 30 kms
C.) 60 kms
D.) 90 kms
cube try kire dulu before tgk jwpn kt bwh tu

















 the jln kerja:
12km/h x 5h = 60 km. 60 km is only the return journey, so rightfully it should be 60km + 60 km = 120 km. but there's no choice for 120km, so i chose 60km. BUT THE ANSWER IS 30KM. because the 12km/h is just the increased speed and we have to divide 60km into 2journeys?apekah

2) some maths question that had 'divide by half' (which actually divide by 0.5 sama ja mcm kita multiply by two). deyum


other questions which i got correct:
--  A man built a rectangular house, each side having a southern view. He spotted a bear. What colour was the bear?
-- A farmer has 15 cows, all but 8 die. How many does he have left?
-- If a red house is made of red bricks, and a blue house is made of blue bricks, what is a green house made of?

other question that i remembered (for confusing me)
-- some green are blue. no blue is white (some green are white, all blue is green, no white is green???)