depa makan tak ajakkk

that awkward moment when ur opismates discussed about their last night's iftar hang-out where u're not invited to join even you were in da opis, sitting next to them, when they were discussing about going out.

i tot i oredi bribed them with popiah susu and cheese haritu kan. 2 bekas ok. huhu. outcasted sangattttt

tukar angin lagi

genap hari ke-15 aku di tempat keje baru.

its taylors of the filthy rich y'all. budak dtg skolah mcm nkpi shopping mall. fancy, and with all the shorts in the world - skirts, dress, pants.
ok haruslah menjadi matang dan cool dan outgoing dengan menjadahkan cara pemakaian mereka.
tapi tulah, tak pepasal dapat dosa kering. sepbekla akuni pompuan - dpt ushar dgn critical eye & jealousy admiration. kalo jantan, takke tergugat tu. but i bet the jantans here are lali with all the display.

hmm not very good for a long time perseverance of iman kan. have to train the eyes (and brain)!

annnnnndd.....

the food
OMG . THE . FOOD

from franchised restaurants to cafes to bakeries to foodcourt (pricey even!) -- seriously mall like.
starbucks, old town, mcD, famous amous, subway, ayam penyet, their own student-managed-fancy-restaurant (temptations) etc...and many more (tak tahu the rest sebab tak habes pusing lagi) all packed in their commercial block.

tu baru 1 blok. tak masuk lagi these small eateries yang bersepah kt blok2 akademik. hot buns? freshly squeezed juices? milkshakes? SEMUA ADA ok. tapiiiiii yup, PRICEY. jgn harap nk mkn complete meal RM5 time sesak2 tu. gone with the nasi+1 lauk+1 sayur=RM 4. haruslah RM 6++

which memberi keazaman baru untuk bwk bekal ke sekolah. cuma kena masak sndiri uhuk uhuk

mencabar diri #kurus2#

last week was the 4th time that i went to Bizzy Body centre for slimming treatments. and i also take shape plus n eve fiber (had to mix/shake it with flavored milk to avoid from uwek wek while swallowing it) though not very regularly. but most importantly i have started eating more healthily (less carbs, more fruits & vege, no solid food after 8pm, 2L++ water etc). that would be the most contributing factor obviously. so, weight drop should be expected lah kan.

anyways, below is the 'shrink' chart:

(too lazy to trace back the dates for initial weight measurement, tp bulan Jan la)
before dieting/treatment: 76.3kg kot

after shape plus, eve fiver, Bz Body session
17/02/2103: 75.2kg

after religious dieting (plus those above [& 3rd Bz Body])
23/02/2013: 73.6 kg.

sukaaaaaa. walopon sikit2 tapi biarlah istiqamah hehe.

tapii......tu before spending the weekend @ rumah mak ndaklah. habis diet aku mlm2 buleh pi kuaq makan.
maka minggu ini harus lebih tabah! strictly only yogurt/fruits/vege for dinner.
mohon tabah badan & semangat

mencabar diri #kurus#

I bought Bz Body discounted slimming sessions from Groupon last year (RM68 for 5 sessions of 12 ke 14 treatments ntah overall). but after realizing that it requires determination/discipline to undergo the sessions so that the money wont be wasted, i kept on delaying from going for the first treatment.

and then last month i just realized that the first appointment had to be made before Jan 2013 ends; apalagi aku pon panicked lah takot the groupon burnt mcm tu. so I decided to just have done with it

7 Feb 2013
had my first session which consisted of coffee scrub detox. it's not in the groupon package, but the BZ Body personnel said that I need to detox first for the slimming treatments to work, kalo tak detox, lemak tuh liat -  kita buang, dia dtg blk something like that. the personnel was so convincing that I bought the detox session (h*YUK78ydgfdpj me) for #brace myself# RM120. just for 1 time of detox session. huhuhuh. the feeling after that? i wish i could say 'omigod i feel lighter, more energetic etc' but nope, i didnt feel anything. tp aku perasan kaya so I thought OKla at that time. hmm. btw lemme just reveal the embarrassing measurement kn, hopefully we'll see some changes (for better opkoz!) along the way

weight: 75.7

17th Feb 2013
so many things happened, I only had the chance to do the second treatment on this date. i went through the body wrapping this time (included in the groupon). this heating process was about 1/2 hour but it felt like hours. dan peluh mcm sungai - good - tapi dizzy sikit. self reminder: to have sugar intake at least 1hr before body wrapping to avoid dizziness.

weight (before wrapping): 75.5 (i hv started my shape plus diet)
weight (after wrapping): 75.3




ok
i havent reached the best part yet
you know they have this consultation after the session kn, i told myself not to be swayed - u dont hv a permanent job yet darling, save up!
but yeah, as predicted. i bought the suggested package.
the RM 1687 package.
1687
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cash
sbb dpt RM200 worth some powerful machine session


pastu nanges tgk baki dlm bank.

macamana mau idop smp nxt week
apatah lagi lepas kontrak keje abes .... uhuk uhuk

hopefully cukup smp nxt gaji dan takperlu menagih simpati mak. shame on you lah tua bangka mintak duit parents lagi
hopefully i'll have SUPERMEGA will & discipline to get through the treatment sessions + dietery plan as outlined by the bz body.



oh, the good part is, i'll be cutting off some expenses on food since now i'm sticking to the BZ Body dietary plan. (no snacking etc)...
(makan secara sihat tulahhhhh YANG PALING MENCABAR sebenarnya.) adakah aku boleh????SECARA CONSISTENTLY???

pleaselah, jangan duit terbazir mcmtu je.
moga tuhan mudahkan aku!

i'll be writing more on the bought package & the ikat perut plan in the new entry i guess. panjang sgt dah tulis, mau sambung keje. eh. oopps.

of Shape Plus & Eve Fiber

ok. terpengaruh dgn iklan yang berkajang2 kt Facebook. maka mengambil keputusan utk try the current hottest slimming product itew. beli online dari akak neh Spaces-HealthStation (nama dia xhengat lak) - 3 kotak shape plus + 2 kotak eve fiber = RM370. utk sebulan; ok tak? ke mahal? used to take herballife--mmg berkesan (1 bulan turun 5kilo kau) tp memori yg dulu2 tu mcm herbalife tu mahal sgt, maybe sbb amek time belajar kot. takpelah, dah terbeli shape plus ni, makan jele.

before i start wth the diary, let me brief u guys about the product. bukanlah nkpromote, x dpt komisyen pon. nuffnang pon aku xjoin. sekadar nk share the experience. bagus kalu aku puji, hampeh kalu aku keji hehehe. (bak kata housemate -- "bolehla awk jadi tikus putih kitorg" cess)

shape plus

1 kotak=10 sachets (ok gmbar curik, tp sama jela kn). 

basically shape plus ni utk double triple kan metabolism rate, thats why die harus diambil before breakfast & lunch. so elak ambil bfore tdur, takut badan aktif so xboleh lelap. dan xsilap ada fungsi kurangkan nafsu mkn kot.
cara: bancuh dgn 200ml air; minum 2 kali sekali je sehari (15-20mins before bfast/lunch)
rasa: sedap. mcm green apple juice.

Eve fiber

1kotak=15sachets (juga gmbar curik, yg penting duit utk beli tu bkn duit curik ok)

yg paling tepat aku rasa fungsi dia ialah utk kejabkan perut - comelkan term aku bagi. dan utk detox kot. sbb pagi td b**** dg lancar sekali hahaha.
cara: bancuh dgn 200-250ml air; minum 1kali sehari (waktu perut kosong -- pas bgn tidur b4 gosok gigi ATAU sebelum tidur
rasa: first impression = uwekk. semalam dah bancuh tu tak terus minum (iron baju etc -- dlm stengah jam). it was a mistake -- dia punya fiber tuh da mngembang mcm thick jelly yg tasteless. terseksa mnelan tp sbb xnk buang duit telankan jelee. so nxt time i'll consume it just after mixing it with water.


day 1 (12 Feb 2013)

starting weight: 75.7 kg gemok gedempols uols

bismillah...puihh la kau 25kg lemaks tepus skalian


p/s : aku ingat shape plus tu amek 2 kali sehari, rupanya max. 2kali sehari, tp sekali sehari dh cukup.
dan eve plus tuh sekotak ada 15 sachs. dan rasanya masih aku xdapat terima. tpaksa habiskn sbb da beli.

how to live life to the fullest (acc. to a 90 yr old woman)

found something worth reading on the net. it's about how we could celebrate life so that there're less matters to regret

Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old, of the Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio .

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 42 lessons life taught me. It is the most requested column I've ever written.

My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short – enjoy it..

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and family will.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Stay true to yourself.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.

9. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

10. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

11. It's OK to let your children see you cry.



12. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

13. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it...

14 Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

15. Get rid of anything that isn't useful. Clutter weighs you down in many ways.

16. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

17. It's never too late to be happy. But it’s all up to you and no one else.

18. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

19. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

20. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

21. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

22. The most important sex organ is the brain.

23. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

24. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

25. Always choose life.

26. Forgive but don’t forget.

27. What other people think of you is none of your business.

28. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

29. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

30. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does..

31. Believe in miracles.

32. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

33. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

34. Your children get only one childhood.

35. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

36. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

37. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

38. Envy is a waste of time. Accept what you already have not what you need.

39. The best is yet to come...

40. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

41. Yield.

42. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

tolong carikan aku kerja baru. sigh

harini aku dapat markah KPI (key performance index - sistem utk analyze perncapaian/performance staff kerajaan). sedey tol tgk markah yg aku dapat. tak berbaloi2. senang cite ; macam haram. 72 je overall . standard org dpt 90+. sorang kwn aku yg dok dept lain pon sedey sbb dia dpt sikit. sikit2 dia pon 80+.

aku malas nak rant lelebey. yelah aku sedar memang lembs skek aku wat keje. tak capai target statistics. dh nama org baru start keje. still in learning process. tahap skills pon basic. byk bende kena blajar lagi kot utk mnjadi effisyen. tapi yg hangin, bila keseriusan aku dipertikai. ok fine, waktu start dulu, 2 bulan pertama byk main - pastu da kene sound aku double effort lah. juling mata mngadap PC. datang awal keje sbb nk build momentum/focus. keje aku ni cataloging buku. maka harus particular. dan aku mmg particularlah - rekod buku lain (yg xmasuk statistik) pon aku tolong 'bersihkan' so that data dalam sistem cun. tp worthless sume tuh. sbb dia tgk FIGURE only; no consideration to other matters. ......... eh kata xmo rant? ok, fine. pendek cite, bwhni antara markah2 kriteria yg aku rasa nk cakap WADDAHEL kt muka org tuh. u know who

(perlu diingatkan markah standard ialah 9 or 10)

KERJA BERPASUKANMemupuk budaya kerja yang prihatin dan mesra, bekerjasama dengan rakan sekerja dan mendapatkan maklumat dengan menghargai idea dan kepakaran orang lain secara tulus serta sedia untuk belajar daripada orang lain.

markah : 7/10

wadde...tolonglah, I AM LEARNING. of koz evry day i would be more than willing to seek knowledge. yg selama ni aku dok constantly consult with my mentor tu ape kategori apa? and I DO APPRECIATE her help, haruslah.........da org ajar kita satu -satu. nk suruh bagi present ke?

KEPIMPINAN/PENYELIAAN
Keupayaan dan kebolehan menggembleng segala sumber dalam kawalannya seperti kewangan, tenaga manusia, peralatan dan maklumat bagi merancang, mengatur, membahagi dan mengendalikan sesuatu tugas untuk mencapai objektif organisasi.

markah: 5/10

oh, jadi aku xpandai guna facilities, colleague's assistance lah...hmm..mungkin aku patut disseminate kerja so boleh capai statistik? oh wait... i work alone remember. my KPI is solely based on cataloging (not managing, handling staff, conflict etc), so how shud i adhere to this, sweet boss? u tell me now

PROAKTIF
Merancang dan melaksanakan sesuatu tindakan dengan cekap dan berkesan.

markah: 5/10

tak cekap. tak berkesan. tak effisyen. kerja xlengkap, halai balai, banyak salah. sebab == staff baru?

KREATIF DAN INOVATIF
Berusaha secara aktif untuk meningkatkan program, bersedia untuk berubah dan menerima perubahan serta sentiasa berusaha melangkaui sempadan ilmu untuk mendapatkan pengetahuan yang baru.

markah: 5/10

ni macam dah tegur still ketegaq takmau berubah. dan baloq liat nak cari ilmu baru. like HELLOOOOOOOOOOO

dont u fuckin see my improvement?????u got my monthly statistics kan. go figure lah. yes i used to be malas. but i learnt my lesson 4 months ago & i seriously tried to meet the job challenges. why cant u see that????

ahh nati sambung blk.

--tensi sbb i need a good cry on this matter tapi air mata xmoh keluar. aghh--

siri procastination

ok. aku mmg suka bertangguh. kadang boleh je siap awal tp dh mmg jadi habit. mmg mkn diri & byk chances aku terlepas disebabkan pe'el bughok neh.

so di sini aku akn mula mencatat segala benda yg aku dok tangguh & hampir/dahpun membawa kemudaratan kepada diri sendiri. supaya xprocastinate lagi. supaya ingat dan sedar diri, dan takdelah pastu rasa nkhentuk kepala dan kata "APSAL AKU XBUAT HARITU!"

30/1/13
KPI data verification (sistem penilaian prestasi - siapa kerja kerajaan taula mende ni) -  i should have verified the data time pihak pengurusan buka special slot utk org2 baru mcm aku = 12 hari lepas. tp tak. btangguh. konon xde idea nak isi bhgn 'aktiviti luar' (padahal mmg xjoin pape pon).  masuk minggu ni, bos mula bagi markah KPI. aku dok tercangak lah, sbb bila my KPI tak di verified, jd bos tak boleh nilai. pastu ketaq pala sbb xsetel - harus takot bos marah kn. pastu br kalut email orang pngurusan. dh kena sound. nasib baik kowtim ayat baik punya, dia tlg buka slot blk. fuh laju2 aku sahkan. kesimpulan - padan muka neves sampai hilang selera makan lunch.