keciwa sblm usia

mmg sah tak ikot the cameron trip.
maka tunas2 gatai itu mengecut sblm smpat bercambah mnjd bunga (ehh??)
hmm

its quite pathetic to have to rely on miracles/rare occurrences for these things to take place
sometimes i wish i were brave enough to let it out
bak kata org belum cuba belum tau
so why not give it a shot, kn
approach tgk, who knows the response is positive


tetapi
nmpknya
i'm not over self insecurities la
esp the fear of being rejected
so cane nkwat?

maybe the first step is...

menjadi kurus

so keyakinan pon bertambah
bila keyakinan meningkat, akan jd berani
bila jd berani, tak perlu lg bersembunyi

*mcm lmbt lg je nk jd berani, sbb xkn mngurus dlm ms terdekat*

tapi bila dh kurus, first2 nk ngorat dey ni:

takeshi kaneshiro: hero time skolah rendah. stil hawt~

tak paham. kami akan engkau

antara perkara yg paling menyedihkan adalah tak bertegur sapa dgn keluarga sendiri. walau serumah. bkn sbb gaduh. bkn sbb tak puas hati. myb sbb awkward. sbb xbiasa bertegur sapa. xbesa pandang mata.

sedihnya rasa bila mereka yg diikat dgn darah diletak nombor dua. ka nombor tiga?lima?sepuluh?

mgkn lupa. diakhirnya yg terikat dgn darah nilah yg xkn paling, yg xkn buang, yg xkn putus.

God even said that treating ur family/relatives is more rewarding than upon others.
family-relatives-friends-strangers
thats the hierarchy of priority. not the other way around. memberi kepada serta menggembirakan keluarga tu kan lebih utama & mulia

hmm...utama ke bila pandang muka pun xbisa?
kenapa ? salah siapa? salahkan ego kita? hebat sangatkah kita?

gatai

one of the classes that i'm teaching asked me to be their guru pengiring for their year-end trip to Cameron Highland. seemed that they have asked other teachers but none are willing to go because of the PMR etc. aku pa lagi ketaq pala, kesian tu kesian, tp .................................. I'm not paid on weekends, guys, sy ni gaji hari je ~~~ lgpon tak pernah kot ikut rombongan skolah SEBAGAI cikgu.

ekculi seekculinya sy takut.

takut tak pandai control budak pastu dorg jd tak terkawal, 

takot tak pandai bergaul (e.g. memboringkan/awkward) dgn budak pastu affect r'ship kitorg/my teaching dlm kelas,

takot tak pandai kwl keadaan pastu ada bdk yg hilang/cedera/histeria/sakit

PALING TAKOT: tak pandai control diri sendiri............why????? sebabnya....

                  bila sy SANGAT menjadi diri sendiri, maka sy akan

                  - tak brapa nk matang dlm berpakaian (e.g. too casual/comell sangat)

                  - tak brapa nk berhemah dlm percakapan (pencarutan guna usual tongue pekat utara vs. English as in class je)

                  - tak brapa nk sopan santun dlm perlakuan (e.g. ghalit shopping/tido@mkn loklaq/kalut/cepat panik/overly laid back/garuk bontot/)

kesimpulannya = tak brapa ke'cikgu'an. lalu bila di kelas, bdk x bape respek

so knapa 'gatai?

just found out the other guru pengiring ====> my light crush (light=permulaan/main-main)

so

terus rasa gatai

ouw..meowwwww

kelirunyeeeeee nk pegi ke taknakkk

kebetulan time tu konvo. patut mmg xley ikot xkesahla gatai ke x. tp bdk2 tu snggup nk tukar tarikh trip ke the next week..adoh

tentang dia yg dekat

My dearest closest cousin is engaged, YEAY! Sooo happy for her its finally happened, successfully & joyfully amidst the minor hassle/confusion here and there (except for the cepumas question yg ni pulak bila lagi..duh...its not about me its about her Ok, so just focus on her plz!).

first lemme brief about this cousin of mine. her name is dylla faz (nama glamer la konon), first daughter of my dad's younger bro and I think because of our age (she's a year younger than me) and our location (our current homes (mak abah msg2 punya) are opposite ke kanan sikit je with each other's) make us really close. and of course our similar interests/sense of humor/palahotak elevate that to

Best Cousin Foreva

a.k.a 

BCF

gitew. she's like my third leg (boleh?), all because mau pigi berseronok ialah ajak dia & dia slalu ON aja. dan tmpt favourite tentulah that lame 10mins-driving-distance Jusco itew. so lame we just wear flip flop jamban ja - this one day she even wore tracksuit sbb xplan pon nkpi tp terpegi jugak

and she's also the one you could always ALWAYS count on. serious. sukew jew lyn aku yg byk demand ni, THANK YOU darling gerl, I heart you a pool! (u know how much i love swimming pools, rite?)

OK ckup psl backgroud intro. moh cita psl td yg berlaku pd sabtu yg bersejarah ini. the E ceremony op koz. well i think its an elongated one, considering the fact that we started masak2 and jamu2 makan since friday. mmg penat! tapi sangatttttt sukaaaaaa esp. sbb ramai sedara blah klantan turun. lama kot tok jupo set2 nu, meghiah suguh! (how's my klate mek dila, ok dok? fine, FAIL).

perjalann majlis =
(jumaat) pagi: potong memotong utk lunch n dinner
           tghr: lunch sdaramara blah bapaks (my pak, her pak, paksu, pakndak,
                   toksu etc)
           ptg: dinner with set2 klate (sdare blah her mom yg also berbau baceng ngn
                  my mum) yg telah tiba
           mlm: jamu set2 johor/KL (the bakal tunang's family and frens) hai ramai
                  pulek kawan c wan ni dtg smp terkonpius aku ni tunang ke akad??????

           MUAHAHAHA SILA TERASA

(sabtu) pagi: siap2 utk bfast pastu bfast wth the large large family yg telah gathered
           pagi lewat: we all+org kg started msk2 for the knuri
           tghr: majlis tahlil (plus tahfiz students from ujung kg.), pastu depa mkn dulu.
                   ketibaan tetamu lain
           1-3pm: (blank) sbb zzz~jange mare mek dylla. ambo kononya penak sangak 
           3pm: the rombongan meminang tiba n maken2 supaya temper
                   semuanya berada dalam kawalan ahaks
           4pm kot: sarung2 cincin salam2 gitu
           5-6pm: sedara/org kg je tinggal mkn2 lg. abes sudah.

tema biru, pink sket, hijau pon terselit (acara guna yg ada). set baju, mekap dan bunga tangan dari Jalinan Kasih (yg sponsor faezah elai tu). mekap ok la. real life nmpak cake-y, tp dlm photos cantek. kot. sbb i didnt snap even 1 pic during the day. maka tpaksa mnagih gambars from atie/jue/mirah/syakila etc. so the pics will be updated soon.

ok stop jap sbb nk pi tmpt lame favourite place itu with family. kesimpulannya seronok sbb acara family gathering. oh, and they loved my triffle pudding. dorg la ckp, mayb sbb depan2 so nk jaga hati, mayb juga sedap betul. for me, this first trial masih ada ruang utk diperbaiki (ayat berhemah tak sedap mana pon ko jgn prasan). pics for this pon nati la ek. babai nk mandi dgn ucapan utk dylla fazz:

ANG MSH BELUM KAWEN SO MASIH KENA LAYAN AKU

                         

disertakan doa : 

ya Allah, jika sudah tertulis dlm suratanMu, maka panjangkanlah jodoh depa ni dylla faz & wan hingga ke taman syurgaMu. aamin.

Kek Batik

Selama ni my sister si roshdon tu yg beria buat kek ni. aku ngap aje. but now she's away and toksiah my youngest sis is also at her hostel so there's no one to b bullied tuk wat kek tu. maka tepaksa buat for mini family get together raya ke 11 atau senang cite the second raya weekend aritu. the recipe below is a combination from ilmu mak dan some bloggers (rujuk bwh2). by the by, here's the recipe:

(Because my family heart this cake, even tak jempot org pon mmg akn buat dlm kuantiti yg byk)

Bahan-bahan:

250g butter /sebuku kecik buttercup
200g Milo /sepeket kecil Milo
1 cawan serbuk koko
505g susu pekat manis /setin kecik
2 sudu teh esen vanila
5 biji telur
Secawan air panas (optional utk kek lebih lembut)
600g biskut Marie / 2bungkus

Bahan tambahan optional: Kekacang (hazelnut, almond, pistachio etc)
                                 Plain rice crips (Kellog's plain Rice Krispies)
                                 1sk Nescafe

Topping juga optional:  Homemade chocolate topping (panaskn 3sb butter + 100g
                             cooking choc bar/stengah bar besar + 1sb cocoa powder)
                             Colorful choc rice

Cara-cara:

1. Patahkan biskut marie kpd 2 atau 4 bhgn.
1.1. (utk org normal/kejar masa) Letak kuali besar atas dapur. Terus ke no.2
1.2. (utk org rajin/lebih masa) Utk lapisan kek yg lebih kemas, sediakan loyang
        berasingan. Alas dgn non-stick baking paper/aluminium foil. Pastikan 
        paper/foil lebih tinggi dari loyang.

2. Adunkan kesemua bahan kecuali butter, telur dan biskut (dan bahan tambahan
   optional) dlm satu bekas. Pukul telur dgn hebat dan masukkan ke dlm adunan tu.
   (use mixer if you must, tak guna pon takpe nati nk kacau dlm kuali jugak)

3. Masukkan adunan ke dlm kuali dan kacau smp sebati. Boh butter yg dalam keadaan
    suhu bilik. Kalo butter tu fresh dr peti sejuk, panaskan dulu butter dlm kuali, bila dh
    cair terus masukkan adunan tadi. [make sure api dlm medium  low heat so butter dan lain2 tak hangit]

4. Sentiasa kacau sampai adunan sebati pekat likat berbintil2. Kalo tak nati kek
    sememeh.Tutup api.

5. Masa untuk menggabungkan adunan coklat dan biskut marie (+ bahan tambahan
    optional). Pilihan:

5.1. Masukkan biskut ke dalam kuali dan gaul smp semua biskut bersalut dgn coklat td. 
     Tuang dlm bekas leper. Letak topping kt ats sekali. Sejukkan dlm peti sejuk
     plg kurang dlm 2 - 3 jam sebelum makan. Siapp

5.2. (yg guna loyang lapik ngn wrapper td)

5.2.1 Tuang selapis adunan coklat ke dalam loyang. Susun selapis biskut elok2.
      Tuang lapisan coklat kedua dgn nipis, lepastu susun biskut lagi. ulang sampai
      semua coklat/biskut habis. lapisan coklat interlayer tu nipis je  ok. lapisan last
      sekali yg paling atas tu ialah coklat.

5.2..2 Ratakan kek dgn wrapper yg lebih2 tadi. tekan sikit2 je nati biskut patah lak.
       Dhtu boh dlm peti 2-3 jam. siapp. makan.

Cara potong:  guna pisau yang dibasahkan dan lap pisau tu. Kalo tak biskut crumbs melekat2 kt bhgn atas kek. Potongan seterusnya lap pisau nagn kain/tisu basah.

Sumber: mak, hana, wendy (sila rujuk utk cara letak lapisan biskut step by step)            
Gambar: later sbb card reader cant read anymore. dasar brg free. huh

Moving on to the new 'lekuk lama'

The teaching-reluctant-me is Back To Teaching

it's an SBP, methinks it should be better than the last time. ye lah budak2 pandai. i can just concentrate on delivering knowledge without having to yell every 15mins to stop the students from chatting loudly/sleeping or  for not bringing textbooks/workbooks/exercise books.

tapi setelah ditarbiah oleh PK1 me is feeling the heavy burden nowww. rupanya bila overall budak ialah pandai & mudah diajar,  cikgu kna target budak yg lemah/tak capai target so that depa bley selari dgn budak lain. i mean, personally engage - ask them what are their problems and give tuition to them. like staying after working hours for tuition?

and he reminded me to be creative in class, make the students feel attracted to English, encourage them to be eager to participate in class esp. the F2 students because apparently the batch is quite weak in Engl as compared to the other batches.

and he asked me to think about any extra/substantial English activities for the school cause they didnt have/dont yet have an English week and discuss with the ketua panitia for it.

YA RITE...so much for occupying free time while waiting for the real job....
so much for 'ikhlas' dalam bercikgu...

and the panicked-inclined receptor has just got the signals..

BAIKLAH
POSITIF
SAYA AKAN CUBA UNTUK IKHLAS DAN RAJIN DAN LEBIH KREATIF
insyaAllah, God be with me!

Sop Hayam Untuk JiwaRaga katanya (applicable to Sup Ayam only)

Selamat berpuasa 6 semua! (utk 3org pembaca blog ini termasuk tuan punya blog~sadis sadis~)

Semalam iyo yoo jo mau post ini resipi tapi last2 meMSWord je before melantak makan light2 titon. Intro br nk pikio at this exact time. so yg bwh ni copy paste je dr Word yg sempat ditulis tu. OK BAIKLAH TERUSKAN SAJA YA CIK CHEF RUBZ

Bahan-bahannya: (mengikut kronologi)

Bahan rebusan pertama

Separuh ekor ayam

Sebatang halia 

1 @ 2 inci lengkuas (optional)

Bahan tumisan

1 batang kulit kayu manis

2 kuntum bunga lawang

4 ketui/bijik bunga cengkih

1 bijik buah pelaga ('optional berat') a.k.a lagi afdol kalo ada here ai boh sebijik je sbb mami xske bau die

*lada hitam (optional berat, lg senang guna serbuk/dh dikisar punya)

*2 @ 3 ulas bwg besar

*3 @ 4 ulas bwg putih

*3 @ 4 inci halia kot (or sebatang yg kecik, ikut taste bud)

Bahan sayoq (sukahati byk manapon, pakai apa yg suka atau lebih tepat apa yg ada)

Kentang (ubi itu sayurka?)

carrot

celery/saderi [love it! Sgt wajib for sup daging/tulang/ekor]

cauliflawah/bunge kobis, babycorn, mushroom….zzzzzz (tak habis kot)

Bahan perasa

Garam

Serbuk perasa (kt umah guna perencah hilal – Islamic kannn :)

Daun sup dan daun bawang---yes, they both are an integral flavoring of any soup that u make.

Chicken stock (optional berat)
Lada hitam (kalo blom msk time rebus)

Lada sulah (optional)

Bawang goreng (optional)

Cara-caranya:

1.  Bahan rebusan pertama: Halia n lengkuas potong besar so xkompius dgn kentang karang. Rebus terus  semua dalam belanga sup. logiknya supaya ayam xhanyir dan wangi. Sambil2 tu sila sedia bhn2 tumis.

2.  Bahan tumisan: Potong benda2 * halus-halus atau kalo nk lagi mulus, tumbuk acara lepas tensen ngan lesung.Tumis segalanya dengan minyak yang agak2 cukup, jgn byk mcm td smlm :’<. Yg penting, tumis lama2 sikit smp wangiiii lembutttt serasiiiii gitew

3.  Agak2 bhn rebusan pertama da empuk muda (xempuk sgt la), masuk tumisan. Pastu buboh bahan sayoq pertama: kentang. Then biar semua encik protein, puan rempah dan abg potato bergaul mesra sesama depa.

4.  Dekat2 kentang nk empuk tu, boh la sayoq carrot sbb dia kan keras sket. Agak2 pastu boh la sayuran lain. p/s: mushroom n tomat boh last

5.  Throw in the bahan perasa secukupppp rasa. Using those as above, there’s no need for perencah sup segera, sup bonjot, tok ajiNoNoNo, maggi  seangkatan. Kena pandai rasa n agak2. Tapi kalo still xconfident pakai jelaa~

6.  Daun sup+daun bawang serta bawang goreng boleh letak lepas api ditutup. Hidang bersama bergediks daging emangnya nyaman bangat!

Snippet tips:

Orang slalu suka guna bawang merah utk tumisan.

Confession: sgt jarang ada bwg merah kt umah. Slalu guna je bwg besar sbb selama ni malas kupas I cant really differ their taste bila da jd gulai/sop/tomyam/msk merah/msk kunyit/kurma. 


OMG talking bout these really makes me hungry. Tp sekarang ialah 12:29am. Ok sedapkan hati td buka posa just terdaya mkn betik, sikit keping kopok ikan, begediks seketul, tiny bits of pedal msk lemak kicap je dan ayaq sirap bandung with love 5 glasses like seriously . NASI DAN SOP AYAM TAK SENTUH LAGI hahaha. dan adn dan esok sambung puasa lagi so sat lagi teringat2, kn. Bgn sahur kang mana nk masuk tekak sup2 ni. Okk mau pigi makannnn

>>> if u think or feel it makes a difference in using bwg merah / bwg besar for tumis, do tell me<<<

Credit to: cik ni, she got this recipe from Aussie master chef [hers got pictures step by step kemain, lagi jelas…tp siyes got time to snap snap cane tuu]

update: mkn utk sahur tadi sup tu rasa cm terlebey something...black pepper kah? white pepper kah? bhn tumisan kah? n rasa kurang jugak...mayb next time kna letak chicken stock kot.yg smlm tu tak letak sbb over yakin

...Ahh...Aku Memang Suka Buat...

jgn pikiaq bukan2...ini hanyalah sejenis pengakuan yang mengangkat sendiri punya bakul  iaitu I LOVE COOKING and TERER at it and I'm single available (buwekk stakat msk sup2 tomyam2 kerabu2 ko brani la mngaku terer. cbe bg rendang toknek sket, kari mletop ka...mau gigit kuku dpn blanga).

OK la the truth is i love trying new recipes esp. those which were not shown/taught by my mom either because she's not an expertise at or my family doesnt really favor them (pdulik hape aku msk dorg xsuke dh aku yg tukang masak). those years (10years+ kot) of living wayyy from home had exposed me to mcm2 rasa kegemaran dr other parts of M'sia jadi dgn xmalu mngaku saya boleh telan hampir apa saja hidangan. mak kn terer msk yg utara ja, so time2 bosan2 lepak kt umah nilah msnya utk mngasah bakat global master chef yg ada, kn. bak kta mak, da kawen esok senang...ala, kwn owang pon ramai xpndai msk pas kawen bahagiaa ja ~ha mlawan!~.okay pn. sepiah, chillax, kn dh kata kt tajuk entry ni, Aku Memang Suka Buat (read: KAKLONG memang suka MASAK ketika mood rajin).

maka mangsa sumber2 resepi aku tentulah  jeng jeng jeng:

1)mak [mak u're the best! mak jugakk yg no.1 ye, td mngata mak hang]
2)Internet [OMG the wonders of Google, Youtube etc. membuatkn diriku prasan spt seorg chef]
3)sdara [bila blk kg/pi umah dorg mkn2 tu cm rs sedap pnuh dgn kasih sayang]
4)rakan [yg pndai msk yg membuatkanku amat kagum sekali sambil jeles sikit2 ja sbb dh dia jamu mkn sedap kowt]


.... (enter flying bird)...


apakah ini, aku telah terastray dr landasan sebenar iaitu utk sharing is caring the resipi yg terbuat utk bukak posa td iaitu sup ayam nyum nyum bersama degilnya begedil atau lebih chomell lagi begediks. ahaks. hmm alang2 dh tersasar tu kita sasarkan lagi halatuju entri ini ya. baiklah mari kita apply pelajaran dolu2 iaitu menyediakan proposal utk the next group of entries which i predict will take mucho much portion of this blog iaitu.....................

Title: Koleksi Resipi Saya 
(yang dikutip dgn penuh enthusiasm atau purak-purak dr sumber2 yg telah dinyatakan)

Objectives of the collection:
i)    as a database to myself so that i can easily locate my favorite recipes
..
ii)   as a mean to share with others so that a better taste can be achieved
..
iii)  as a comprehensive and an organize recipe file that can be administered and managed efficiently as time goes by wuahh kalo lecturer bibliographic organization dr. yushiana bc ni musti dia bangga dgn application of knowldege gitew
..
iv)  tujelah kowt. ksimpulannya yg utama tu senang aku nk msk lain kali. Kadang tu dh jmp n try resipi ideal tapi dah gap mase dgn yg dolu tu lame bebenor - namaya pon short term memory - dah kne pulok google smule pastu belek kilik pilih sejam dua b4 setart msk. haa kan baziaq masa tu.

Must-Do means to achieve the objectives:
i)   tag the recipe with complete err tags?
[e.g. type: cake/curry... taste: sweet/savoury...main ingredient(s): raw strawberries/ikan keli/terung...]
..
ii)  always update the recipes once a better one is found. better yet, mark the updated version below the old recipe so that there will be an option whether to follow the old or new recipes. tp klo yg lama tu cm siyes takleh pakai, buang jelee...buat semak je nati ko jgk yg pening.
..
iii)  MESTI DH TRY RESIPI ITU DULU YA & dikonfirmkan kberkesanannya sblm post
..
iv)  last but not least credit la the source of the recipes...barulah mencedok dgn berhemah namanya..tanpa aktiviti plagiat? plagat? (plagiarism)

ok otak beku so sebelum terlupa resipi sop ayam td aku nk tulis the recipe in the next entry sbb sini sudah semaks

Superwomankah dikau? (I)

Dia wanita mulia

Setia pada suaminya

Walau tanpa lebih biasa

Ihsan pada anaknya

Mengikut tak banyak bicara

Ramah pada taulan saudara

Walau kadang diendah rupa

Ikhlas, tak perlu selalu berkira

Itu agaknya prinsipmu yang satu

Nadi kepada semangatmu, kecekalanmu, keluhuranmu

Di usia ini ujian Tuhan buatmu

Redup mata bercerita

Tak terperi bisa sembilu

Tak bisa menirai pilu

Insan cekal,

Walau esok berselimut kelabu

Tetaplah di sini, cuma itu pintaku

Cause our heart goes for you

11:06am – bersama abah menanti maklang yang tengah undergoing chemo since 9am. It should be done by 11.30-12n they said. Six times every fortnight. Tuhanku, Kau ringankanlah beban derita ibu saudaraku ini. Aamin.

update: rupanya 1:00pm baru siap kemo. so blk umah aku agak emo. sungguh tak berperi diri ini. sigh~

kerja oh kerja di mana kau kerja

i'm panicking

its almost 3 months and still with no job. ok mmg la aritu jd cikgu ganti sekejap but i'm talking about real permanent job in which why i took (that particular) MA for - well because i want to change my path because i'm tired of being an english educator want to experience new things tp knape aku ckp psl ni padahal nkbitau otak yg sdg tensen sbb smp skrg takdek pon company yg acknowledge aku pnh anta resume ke dorg.

huh
should i further my phD plak?
tp haruslah akn kna dependent on scholarship pastu kna jd lecturer jugak...adoi
oh did i mention why tak suke tak suke tak suke jd educator?
omg banyak kot sbb musababnya tp sbb oleh kerna da dkt 3am so mau titoq dolu nxt time bley wat entry reasons of why i hate being a teacher

so mari tidoq dgn doa "ya tuhan bukakanlah pintu rezeki untukku dan kurniakanlah aku apa yg terbaik untukku" aamin