metamorfosis: lumrah hidup

dalam hidup akan ada certain stage yg kita rasa mcm susahnya nklepas; bolehke aku hadapi ni? thats my situation now:
iaitu akan blah meninggalkan kg halaman jap lagi. mak aku la ni, nakpi harini sbb esok di nkpi Sogo, bley?

uh uh
babai keseronokan, ketenangan & kehangatan keluarga, rumah & udara penang.

well, i've been to rantauan since Form 1-Form 5 (negeri sembilan) and then university years 2003-2007, 2009-2011 (kl) but never felt like this before...hmm

this coming Monday (1st July 2012) i'll be starting my full time working days at UM. nervous nervous nervous! (partly because of the job title 'project officer': totally new)

am moving to a new phase of life now. need to be stronger than ever. wish me luck guys! i really need that.

#ya Allah permudahkanlah urusanku di dunia baru ini. cekalkan hatiku, temukan aku teman yang baik2. lindungi aku dari segala musibah, naungi aku dalam rahmatMu. aameenn#




babai nyenyet. maklong will be missing u. remember me, will ya?

hati sentuh

lagi entry psai peralihan angin actually.

well, time2 neves, kebingungan, kerisauan & kesedihan bercampur baur ni, mmg sensitip skek ye.

hmm...just had a chat with a friend (the uum girl, yg nani kata 'hawau' tuh hehe). we talked about how could we save living in kl. after much whining and sighing, she said "kalu hang ddk ngn pakndak hang smp aku msk uia okla, nnti aku dh register hang ddk ja bilik aku tu, xpyh byr sewa umah"....."aku nktolong hang ja, mula dok kl mmg seksa"

aku ni la. kalau org buat jahat ngn aku, aku bley wat keras ati. tp pantang org buat baik, mula rasa sebak.







sori friend, i had thought badly of u.

beralih angin (total rant&depressing thoughts)

omg neves gel

mmg dasar semua benda nak neves. tambah lagi la nktukar angin ni. lagiilaaaaa......

paling neves:
~ mana nakcari rumah sewa
~ transpot (rumah-tmpt keje........i really hate my driving-fearing-self right now)
~ new job environment & jobscope (like, colleagues' xpectations&hospitality&friendliness, or mcmana kalo depa soh travel somewhere, keep moving here and there [did i tell u the job title is PEGAWAI PROJEK, hello??apakah?knapa x ordinary librarian?] => ok, berbalik kpd ketakutan driving, dhla pusat kl)
~ sampai bila kena keje kl, i'm so lah kampung girl ok. i hate traffic jams, tolls at every roads/streets, congested areas, expensive mknn etc.

kesedihan:
~ parting from Nyenyet.....will she recognize me when i'm back home this Raya?...wont be able to hug&kiss her once she wakes up / b4 she goes to sleep anymore...padahal itulah rutin harian sejak ada baby kt umah. will miss her sweet baby smell...cuddling her to sleep...the toothless grins...the 'ta ta ta ga ga ma ma ba ba ge geh'...the cute wailing...the nonsensical sense of humour...the soft body...the dainty fingers...omg i need to hv my own baby right now
~ parting from mom n dad.....talking tru phone xseseronok face to face
~ parting from tilam (not bantals, since i'll be taking them together, harussss)
~ parting from home (cooking, lepaking, total security that u feel when u're within ur comfort area with ppl who u love, who wont stab u, whom u can depend on, where u can b at total ease)
~ parting from the LAIDBACK LIFESTYLE yang telah terbiasa selama half a year ini huhuhuhu

huhuhuhuhhuhu

resipi air asam for beginner/ ikan bakar

semalam tringin mkn ikan bakaq. maka harus ada air asam yg selama sangatlah tidak konfiden aku membuatnya (i.e. tak pernah buat sndr, hnya ikot arahan mak). pastu came across this googled recipe yg mengakibatkan pembuatan air asam sebanyak dua kali sbb laku hohoho. sedap sgt ke? ntah tanya la famili aku. for me, ok la, passable for air asam utk ratahan bersama ikan bakaq tersebut

BAHAN air asam

blender/tumbuk:
10 cili padi
1 cili merah
seketul bwg besar ( saiz sederhana)
sebiji tomato
3/4 sudu teh pati asam jawa
1 inci beacan
2 sudu besar gula (tidak menggunung ye)
2 sudu teh garam (tidak menggunung jugak)
air limau nipis/kasturi (setengah biji)
1 sudu besar sos cili (optional)

hiris:
5 - 10 cili padi (ikut pedas tolerance)
seketul bwg besar
sebiji tomato

CARA:
-- blender atau tumbuk benda2 tu dgn air sikit je. boh dlm bekas gaulan.
-- masukkan hirisan bawang besar (kalo rajin ramas dlm air asam td so air bwg terembes)
-- masukkan hirisan cili padi & tomato.
-- adjust rasa


ikan bakar:
-- garam kunyit ikan merah (kerisi) / temenung (kembong)
-- balut dgn daun lengkuas / pandan (optional, kalo balut aroma dia lg besh)
-- grill atas nonstick pan

whats the deal with UM anyway?

after the first stage (aptitude & english tests) and the second stage (interview)..........

I GOT IT

hehehehehehehehe

depa called tadi pagi bagitau:

...."jadi, surat tawaran ni nak datang ambil sendiri ke nak suruh kami pos?"

thank u Allah!

thank u mak abah!

thank u makndak n pakndak {and kak ina, kak ida & adk alip}!

thank u jannah! (my UM GPS & driver, u're d best)

thank u ajim and yaya love {and takim indirectly}!

thank u zaza & her kak {her kak's and family}! [lupa nama la kak...]

thank u interview busddies whose-names-unknown!

thank u family, thank u friends

all your physical/moral/mental aids&support

are deeply, sincerely appreciated

and of course the interviewers who hv seen the POTENTIAL in me

love u all lah!

(hehehe thinkin back of how hopeless i was after the interview; i wonder why they took me in, mayhap i should ask the Ketua Pustakawan later)

interview for librarian post: IIUM interview reflection

last tuesday, i went to an interview for another librarian position at IIUM. at first, i thought it was odd that the interview would start at 5pm --- who would arrange an interview at such time, right? --- but actually it was not a wonder then, as the process for each candidate took not more than 10mins. fast and furious, eh. as the third candidate, mine finished at 5.16pm (the first one was called at 4.50pm). so pastu apa lagi pi minum la kan (dinner sbnrnye), with ajim and sarah; as well as umi and syida (also candidates for the vacancy...fuuuu very the competition)

anyway, here're the questions:
-- describe about yourself
(i've learnt to tell only a little about self, and more on tertiary education background and related job experiences)

-- what library system that u're familiar with
(err...UIA's Sirsi Dynix, as a user of course...and KOHA, an independent system used at the resource center which i've work for previously..err not much lorrrr huhuhu)

---which department do u want to work at
(with lack of experience, i would accept any position or department, because i want to learn everything...bla bla cant remember the rest)

overall reflection:
with several other experienced candidates, it's a slim chance for me i think. hmmm....



mood: gloomy.
reason:
librarian vacancy at UUM, and God knows w.h.y they ask to get the form from the counter there (payment: RM5) or send them stamped envelope (RM1) and they'll post it home. hello IT department? hello website enhancer? orang dah pakai web 2.0 dorg still ber pos2 camtu lagi.

but thats not the reason for my state of mood actually. it's just that, a close friend who lives nearer to UUM already took the form . i jokingly asked her why didnt she get a form for me too (we're classmates, both are still job hunting) and she jokingly answered " [kalau aku amek utk ang] cari pasai ttp lubang aku..UUM tu hutan kot, xsesuai ngan hang.haha"

it's a joke, but i think she meant it :-(

interview for librarian post: questions to ponder on

here are some questions that I remember from the interview with the UM last two weeks. starting with the one that brought the most stinging effect to me

question: why don't you further your Phd? you can become a lecturer
what i answered: i feel that i dont have the expertise to focus on in writing the theses, so i'm not confident in doing it yet
responded question: u're giving me the impression that once we've given u the training, u'll do your PhD and leave the the library to become a lecturer
me: (fcuk. why did i say that before)...em, actually i'm not interested in teaching, thats why i chose MLIS and not MAESL....

(why why why did i respond with this! i shoud have said stm like: completing a doctoral degree doesnt solely mean that u want to be a lecturer; it is one of the ways to become an expert in certain fields. wouldnt it be a benefit to the institution itself if they have an expert in a particular area? i could become an asset to this library instead)

question: have you ever been to the libraries in any other countries? if you're given enough revenue, what radical changes that you can do to your library
me: change the appearance, upgrade the environment...like having a mini garden in the library, as well as great toilets (yup, i've SAID this. uhhh)

question: what do you think of opening the library 24h? give pros and cons
me: quite ok, it's good especially for those who're doing a research

question: these days, people rely so much on the internet as their first source of information. how can you attract people to come to the library and retain them there
me: i can say there're 2 approaches to this. 1) if we cannot physically pull them to the library, we go to them; that is by developing a virtual library. 2) by being able to provide all materials and assistance needed by the students, like having liaison librarians who really really are an expert in that field and would be able to guide students from A to Z in their study and information retrieval. (duh... if only my words were as organized as this)

question: if there's only 1 vacancy, why should we hire you and not the other persons
me: (I REALLY HATE THIS QUESTION. dont u know how hopeless i m in boosting myself?) err..i'm a very curious person, (....yeah, like, THAT is your most valuable trait ke rubi oiiii) so i'll be willing to learn new things...bla bla...comfortable to work individually and in team...bla bla...


overall thought:

i was clumsy in the interview, there were three candidates with experiences there, so i wouldnt put much hope then. huhuhu

of Kenduri and Interview

1)Kenduri Menyambut Tetamu Menantu

last week was my dearest cousin's wedding and tonight, all of us are heading to Pasir Gudang Johor at 8pm for her "welcoming-the-daughter-in-law ceremony" (seswai tak kehkehkeh). the wedding is on Saturday = tomorrow; can u imagine: we'll depart by 8pm (HOPEFULLY. no delay please) and it's Permatang Pauh Penang - Pasir Gudang Johor kutub utara kutub selatan sungguh! so, 12h journey is expected. 12hours ladies and gents...and straight to the wedding.

oh my tulang belakang....huaaaa...

and oh, by 'all of us', i meant a 'busfull' of us. hey, it's the first daughter and we're pretty excited then. untunglah kan sapa2 first child yang kawen in a family, semua org beriye gitew

2)UM interview
neves neves neves

apparently i passed the UM Aptitude Test the other day (know no aptitude test eh? click HERE to read my rant about it). so, the next phase is the interview la kan.

it's supposed to be on last two weeks, but one of the candidates had to emcee for a national library thingy conference (the reason he emailed to all of us other candidates telling his activity is a mystery - to intimidate ke?). so, it's postponed to next Monday 4th June. as usual - no idea what to prepare, how to act - i mean, the reason why i didnt pass any of the librarian post interviews should be my lack of interview/personality-boost skills, right. right? oh oh oh i'm so so nervous....i badly need the job. 6 months without real permanent job feels like s*** like, like, a minion, a loser. i didnt spent the two years of my life to end up like this:- therefore precious Master scroll, thou better work the magic OK

so please God, if this job is truly my fate: please clear the path for me. make them see the capable hardworking industrious diligent dynamic charming side of me Amiiiin