of height

definitely an attractive attribute

mmm...
adoi

monday blues

tengok cermin toilet dan baru perasan selendang terselak menampakkan orat

orat leher

dan collar bone area.

dan bwh sikit dari tu. 

owh hell

unforgettable moments

there are tons of happenings (most of which very fond ones) throughout August and September. hello, it's kind of the highlight of a Muslim kot---
#of ramadhan - posa, buka posa,
#of syawal - raya, open houses, family gath, family outing, family day =>>>>, weddings
#of post-syawal - working life reawakening (pengalaman mensentapkan erkk), weddings some more, open houses some more

tapi sangat takde masa nak mngarut. well, ada sbnr nya, tapi rumah sewa takde wifi, and I'm not using smartphone yg enables online kan. jadi tinggal time office hour ygmana tidak berpatutan utk menulis blog - spt skrg ni, curi masa sat; oh sgt tidak baik ye rubi -

and time balik rumah kt penang pon xsempat. berjimbaan dgn family was more exciting than mengadap netbuk writing. andddd i did travel a lot during those short vacations. busy busy busy!

hence the 1 entry for August. and the 18965 unwritten memories in it. uhuk uhuk

wish i'd never seen that

urgh urgh whyyyyy did he have to flash that right in front of my desk????
oh whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy did my eyes flicker to that spot at that time???????

at workplace. same size. black in color

it is so inappropriate to wear loose pants to work, buddy, big no no. wekks.

rumah idaman

one day i'm having a home with this design i swear

http://blogserius.blogspot.com/2012/08/serius-indo-villa-adasa-villa-mewah-di.html

tersedak aku

if only ada office sendiri, kn (yg buleh kunci & bertudung tingkap opkoz). pastu palk dok sorg2, kalis bunyi suma...takdela tersedak2 kontrol mkn. opps. oh well we ALL know ladies hv their own rewards [cue music: feel like a woman by shania twain] yeah!

ok sketla rupe aku dr yg neh

hmm actually i just want to deliver my gratitude towards my mammah for tapaukan bekalan ns tomato dr penang for sahur (& yg seumpama dgnnya hehe). time kasey mak, kaklong xtau knapa time mkn td rs cm sebak sket2. mencik ah. ;<

dugaan bulan posa bagi yang single

had a dream last night. around 4 am

starring: me, aaron aziz lookalike, some girl xingat muka

plot:

me: been chased by aaron, who was chased by the girl. i kept avoiding him; the girl kept seducing him, but he seduced me. ada adegan kejar2. he even kissed my fingers. left foot fingers

how erotic

i used to think that was disgusting. but in that dream it wasnt.

in fact i guess that was the first time i can feel the pulse beating crazily against my chest and wrist.

woke up feeling restless - from the shock? or lust? or from frustration of failure to return the affection? 

btolke dreams are our suppressed thoughts and desires?

tapi  i havent berharap for any guy for quite some time jugak.

ohhhhoii bulan posa kot.

dirty dirty mind

haishh

26/07/12 update:
pikir2 balik, wadahel aku dok melunjur kaki dpn die lak? and whyyyyy on earth dengan relanya membiarkan that aaron touched me, let alone kissed the tips of my foot fingers???

day 5 (on job)

my new life has started last Monday
new job, new house, new routes, new friends (+housemates). so basically this entry is my first impression on those subjects.

job
*project officer (librarian), contract-based (T.T)*
- for this first week, i was taught & instructed to do some 'input' on indexing, which basically relates to 'inputing' the labels or keywords that we use in finding books, theses/dissertation, magazines etc. kalo kitorg x buat korang xley cari buku kt OPAC ok.  


my impression so far? boring jugak. the same task on and on and on. maybe its because i'm still in the phase of learning kot. dan tak stress jugak. tak pernah lagila dengar orang2 sini mngeluh pasal keja. time jadi cikgu dolu, the first day dah tau all the problems, working pressure suma. mmg btolla kata orang, keja pejabat setakat kt pejabat je. habis waktu opis, ciao. kena tahan boring jela. dan kepayahan naik pangkat huhuhu.

which made me want to rethink of my future path. i mean, for all this time, i've been whining about being an educator dengan perangai students, workload, class preparation etc. but those things keep u moving actually. along the journey, u'll be able to develop in many aspects. kena rajin skek la, berfikir, belajar, menulis, publish etc. ur job opportunities depend solely on u, kau rajin, kau naik. tapi keja opis macam aku sekarang ni, kau rajin, kau tunggu org atas kau pencen/blah, kau amek test/pegi interview, baru kau naik. tu pon kalau kau lagi outstanding dengan pesaing2 lain. susah kn.

apakah aku harus berpatah balik ke teaching???????????????????
i really hate the indecisive me.


(ok cam panjang, so yang pasal rumah dan rakan baru itu next entry lah. mau sambung buat indexing. erk kantoi)

metamorfosis: lumrah hidup

dalam hidup akan ada certain stage yg kita rasa mcm susahnya nklepas; bolehke aku hadapi ni? thats my situation now:
iaitu akan blah meninggalkan kg halaman jap lagi. mak aku la ni, nakpi harini sbb esok di nkpi Sogo, bley?

uh uh
babai keseronokan, ketenangan & kehangatan keluarga, rumah & udara penang.

well, i've been to rantauan since Form 1-Form 5 (negeri sembilan) and then university years 2003-2007, 2009-2011 (kl) but never felt like this before...hmm

this coming Monday (1st July 2012) i'll be starting my full time working days at UM. nervous nervous nervous! (partly because of the job title 'project officer': totally new)

am moving to a new phase of life now. need to be stronger than ever. wish me luck guys! i really need that.

#ya Allah permudahkanlah urusanku di dunia baru ini. cekalkan hatiku, temukan aku teman yang baik2. lindungi aku dari segala musibah, naungi aku dalam rahmatMu. aameenn#




babai nyenyet. maklong will be missing u. remember me, will ya?

hati sentuh

lagi entry psai peralihan angin actually.

well, time2 neves, kebingungan, kerisauan & kesedihan bercampur baur ni, mmg sensitip skek ye.

hmm...just had a chat with a friend (the uum girl, yg nani kata 'hawau' tuh hehe). we talked about how could we save living in kl. after much whining and sighing, she said "kalu hang ddk ngn pakndak hang smp aku msk uia okla, nnti aku dh register hang ddk ja bilik aku tu, xpyh byr sewa umah"....."aku nktolong hang ja, mula dok kl mmg seksa"

aku ni la. kalau org buat jahat ngn aku, aku bley wat keras ati. tp pantang org buat baik, mula rasa sebak.







sori friend, i had thought badly of u.

beralih angin (total rant&depressing thoughts)

omg neves gel

mmg dasar semua benda nak neves. tambah lagi la nktukar angin ni. lagiilaaaaa......

paling neves:
~ mana nakcari rumah sewa
~ transpot (rumah-tmpt keje........i really hate my driving-fearing-self right now)
~ new job environment & jobscope (like, colleagues' xpectations&hospitality&friendliness, or mcmana kalo depa soh travel somewhere, keep moving here and there [did i tell u the job title is PEGAWAI PROJEK, hello??apakah?knapa x ordinary librarian?] => ok, berbalik kpd ketakutan driving, dhla pusat kl)
~ sampai bila kena keje kl, i'm so lah kampung girl ok. i hate traffic jams, tolls at every roads/streets, congested areas, expensive mknn etc.

kesedihan:
~ parting from Nyenyet.....will she recognize me when i'm back home this Raya?...wont be able to hug&kiss her once she wakes up / b4 she goes to sleep anymore...padahal itulah rutin harian sejak ada baby kt umah. will miss her sweet baby smell...cuddling her to sleep...the toothless grins...the 'ta ta ta ga ga ma ma ba ba ge geh'...the cute wailing...the nonsensical sense of humour...the soft body...the dainty fingers...omg i need to hv my own baby right now
~ parting from mom n dad.....talking tru phone xseseronok face to face
~ parting from tilam (not bantals, since i'll be taking them together, harussss)
~ parting from home (cooking, lepaking, total security that u feel when u're within ur comfort area with ppl who u love, who wont stab u, whom u can depend on, where u can b at total ease)
~ parting from the LAIDBACK LIFESTYLE yang telah terbiasa selama half a year ini huhuhuhu

huhuhuhuhhuhu

resipi air asam for beginner/ ikan bakar

semalam tringin mkn ikan bakaq. maka harus ada air asam yg selama sangatlah tidak konfiden aku membuatnya (i.e. tak pernah buat sndr, hnya ikot arahan mak). pastu came across this googled recipe yg mengakibatkan pembuatan air asam sebanyak dua kali sbb laku hohoho. sedap sgt ke? ntah tanya la famili aku. for me, ok la, passable for air asam utk ratahan bersama ikan bakaq tersebut

BAHAN air asam

blender/tumbuk:
10 cili padi
1 cili merah
seketul bwg besar ( saiz sederhana)
sebiji tomato
3/4 sudu teh pati asam jawa
1 inci beacan
2 sudu besar gula (tidak menggunung ye)
2 sudu teh garam (tidak menggunung jugak)
air limau nipis/kasturi (setengah biji)
1 sudu besar sos cili (optional)

hiris:
5 - 10 cili padi (ikut pedas tolerance)
seketul bwg besar
sebiji tomato

CARA:
-- blender atau tumbuk benda2 tu dgn air sikit je. boh dlm bekas gaulan.
-- masukkan hirisan bawang besar (kalo rajin ramas dlm air asam td so air bwg terembes)
-- masukkan hirisan cili padi & tomato.
-- adjust rasa


ikan bakar:
-- garam kunyit ikan merah (kerisi) / temenung (kembong)
-- balut dgn daun lengkuas / pandan (optional, kalo balut aroma dia lg besh)
-- grill atas nonstick pan

whats the deal with UM anyway?

after the first stage (aptitude & english tests) and the second stage (interview)..........

I GOT IT

hehehehehehehehe

depa called tadi pagi bagitau:

...."jadi, surat tawaran ni nak datang ambil sendiri ke nak suruh kami pos?"

thank u Allah!

thank u mak abah!

thank u makndak n pakndak {and kak ina, kak ida & adk alip}!

thank u jannah! (my UM GPS & driver, u're d best)

thank u ajim and yaya love {and takim indirectly}!

thank u zaza & her kak {her kak's and family}! [lupa nama la kak...]

thank u interview busddies whose-names-unknown!

thank u family, thank u friends

all your physical/moral/mental aids&support

are deeply, sincerely appreciated

and of course the interviewers who hv seen the POTENTIAL in me

love u all lah!

(hehehe thinkin back of how hopeless i was after the interview; i wonder why they took me in, mayhap i should ask the Ketua Pustakawan later)

interview for librarian post: IIUM interview reflection

last tuesday, i went to an interview for another librarian position at IIUM. at first, i thought it was odd that the interview would start at 5pm --- who would arrange an interview at such time, right? --- but actually it was not a wonder then, as the process for each candidate took not more than 10mins. fast and furious, eh. as the third candidate, mine finished at 5.16pm (the first one was called at 4.50pm). so pastu apa lagi pi minum la kan (dinner sbnrnye), with ajim and sarah; as well as umi and syida (also candidates for the vacancy...fuuuu very the competition)

anyway, here're the questions:
-- describe about yourself
(i've learnt to tell only a little about self, and more on tertiary education background and related job experiences)

-- what library system that u're familiar with
(err...UIA's Sirsi Dynix, as a user of course...and KOHA, an independent system used at the resource center which i've work for previously..err not much lorrrr huhuhu)

---which department do u want to work at
(with lack of experience, i would accept any position or department, because i want to learn everything...bla bla cant remember the rest)

overall reflection:
with several other experienced candidates, it's a slim chance for me i think. hmmm....



mood: gloomy.
reason:
librarian vacancy at UUM, and God knows w.h.y they ask to get the form from the counter there (payment: RM5) or send them stamped envelope (RM1) and they'll post it home. hello IT department? hello website enhancer? orang dah pakai web 2.0 dorg still ber pos2 camtu lagi.

but thats not the reason for my state of mood actually. it's just that, a close friend who lives nearer to UUM already took the form . i jokingly asked her why didnt she get a form for me too (we're classmates, both are still job hunting) and she jokingly answered " [kalau aku amek utk ang] cari pasai ttp lubang aku..UUM tu hutan kot, xsesuai ngan hang.haha"

it's a joke, but i think she meant it :-(

interview for librarian post: questions to ponder on

here are some questions that I remember from the interview with the UM last two weeks. starting with the one that brought the most stinging effect to me

question: why don't you further your Phd? you can become a lecturer
what i answered: i feel that i dont have the expertise to focus on in writing the theses, so i'm not confident in doing it yet
responded question: u're giving me the impression that once we've given u the training, u'll do your PhD and leave the the library to become a lecturer
me: (fcuk. why did i say that before)...em, actually i'm not interested in teaching, thats why i chose MLIS and not MAESL....

(why why why did i respond with this! i shoud have said stm like: completing a doctoral degree doesnt solely mean that u want to be a lecturer; it is one of the ways to become an expert in certain fields. wouldnt it be a benefit to the institution itself if they have an expert in a particular area? i could become an asset to this library instead)

question: have you ever been to the libraries in any other countries? if you're given enough revenue, what radical changes that you can do to your library
me: change the appearance, upgrade the environment...like having a mini garden in the library, as well as great toilets (yup, i've SAID this. uhhh)

question: what do you think of opening the library 24h? give pros and cons
me: quite ok, it's good especially for those who're doing a research

question: these days, people rely so much on the internet as their first source of information. how can you attract people to come to the library and retain them there
me: i can say there're 2 approaches to this. 1) if we cannot physically pull them to the library, we go to them; that is by developing a virtual library. 2) by being able to provide all materials and assistance needed by the students, like having liaison librarians who really really are an expert in that field and would be able to guide students from A to Z in their study and information retrieval. (duh... if only my words were as organized as this)

question: if there's only 1 vacancy, why should we hire you and not the other persons
me: (I REALLY HATE THIS QUESTION. dont u know how hopeless i m in boosting myself?) err..i'm a very curious person, (....yeah, like, THAT is your most valuable trait ke rubi oiiii) so i'll be willing to learn new things...bla bla...comfortable to work individually and in team...bla bla...


overall thought:

i was clumsy in the interview, there were three candidates with experiences there, so i wouldnt put much hope then. huhuhu

of Kenduri and Interview

1)Kenduri Menyambut Tetamu Menantu

last week was my dearest cousin's wedding and tonight, all of us are heading to Pasir Gudang Johor at 8pm for her "welcoming-the-daughter-in-law ceremony" (seswai tak kehkehkeh). the wedding is on Saturday = tomorrow; can u imagine: we'll depart by 8pm (HOPEFULLY. no delay please) and it's Permatang Pauh Penang - Pasir Gudang Johor kutub utara kutub selatan sungguh! so, 12h journey is expected. 12hours ladies and gents...and straight to the wedding.

oh my tulang belakang....huaaaa...

and oh, by 'all of us', i meant a 'busfull' of us. hey, it's the first daughter and we're pretty excited then. untunglah kan sapa2 first child yang kawen in a family, semua org beriye gitew

2)UM interview
neves neves neves

apparently i passed the UM Aptitude Test the other day (know no aptitude test eh? click HERE to read my rant about it). so, the next phase is the interview la kan.

it's supposed to be on last two weeks, but one of the candidates had to emcee for a national library thingy conference (the reason he emailed to all of us other candidates telling his activity is a mystery - to intimidate ke?). so, it's postponed to next Monday 4th June. as usual - no idea what to prepare, how to act - i mean, the reason why i didnt pass any of the librarian post interviews should be my lack of interview/personality-boost skills, right. right? oh oh oh i'm so so nervous....i badly need the job. 6 months without real permanent job feels like s*** like, like, a minion, a loser. i didnt spent the two years of my life to end up like this:- therefore precious Master scroll, thou better work the magic OK

so please God, if this job is truly my fate: please clear the path for me. make them see the capable hardworking industrious diligent dynamic charming side of me Amiiiin

skincare: KOSE Seikisho

the world knows that i love

1) freebies

2) discounts (the -%, half price, cut cut cut)

3) mystery gifts

so, even when i was quite happy with my skin condition using the previous skincare, i was very much tempted lah with the promotion at the KOSE booth at Jusco tu. bila dh seated kt dpn promoter tu apa lagi...haruslah terpengaruh. jadi saya pun belilah a set of the brand's special promotion. it consists of Cool Cleansing Gel + Exfoliating Massage Gel + White Mask = RM 180 (each item costs about RM85 for normal price).

Cool Cleansing Gel

--to be used before we wash our face at the end of the day, its function is to melt away our make-up AND sunblock.

review: i dont see anything special about this one, like other cleansing gel, it's oily and makes us uncomfortable. and i think they are many other products that work the same as this one, but WITH CHEAPER PRICE. (it's not that i apply thick make up anyway)
star: 1.5/5


Exfoliating Massage Gel

--basically its purpose is to remove old skin cells.

review:  look at the rich colour beside - the black gel feels slightly hot on face. gradually, it becomes cold as it turns into grey; which, i think, shows that the active ingredients have been completely er...activated?utilized? anyways, i LOVE it. after rinsed off,  my skin feels feathery soft and the pores are less visible too, making the skin more even. but, the effect don't really last long; if only i can use it every night...
star: 3/5


Mask White
-- to remove dead skin/ blackheads/ whiteheads

review: This leave on black gel mask requires about 20mins -/+ to dry before it can be peeled off from our face. if the mask is still sticky, then it won't be able to peel the irritating heads off our face. the feeling of looking at the stuck heads on the peeled off mask is PRICELESS. i still find a few headstrong heads that refuse to come off every now and then, but not that much.

p/s: i only apply the gel on my nose and chin because apparently, i just realized that my skin is quite sensitive. before, i applied it onto the whole face (leaving only eyes and lips areas) and i had to face:-
(1) painful process of peeling off the mask, especially on the cheeks under the eyes and
(2) the after effect of reddish skin - like u've been lightly sunburned and
(3) itchiness! i had to rinse my face with lukewarm water to soothe my skin alolo cian die tau
because of these, i only apply the mask on my nose and chin


p/s/s: this entry has been in the draft for 2 months, because i'm yet to upload the picture of me with the white mask. huh myself
p/s/s/s: now i'm using Kose's complete basic skincare for beginner, and yes, i have the review in my draft but  God knows when will i post it...

Triffle (pudding - jelly)

i was responsible to take care of the Makan Beradap's desserts on my cousin's wedding. it had been quite a sometime that i made triffle before (duh, like - last year's Eid kot) so i had to Google the recipe once again. after a few recipes 'mix and match', the outcome was quite overwhelming (praises, recipe inquiries kekeke). so better to jot down before the memory lapse once again, aite?

ni lah ropenye triffle yg simple itew

Ingredients

Bekas triffle:
Bekas kaca lutsinar besar atau 10 dessert cups
Custard pudding:
400ml susu sejat/evaporated milk/creamer (1 tin)
400ml air (guna tin susu tadi)
8 sudu besar gula (xkesah: kasar/halus/kastor)
2 kuning telur
4 sudu besar tepung kastard
secubit garam (untuk rasa lemak2, siyes)
1 1/2 sudu besar esen vanilla
Crystal Jelly:
sekotak serbuk jelly kristal perisa strawberi (Nona's/Konyaku's)
1 sudu besar gula
2 gelas air
pewarna sirap/merah (aku letak cordial Roselle instead)
Untuk tabur-taburan:
roll cake atau sebarang kek yg ada
2 bekas kecil nata de coco
1 tin kecil fruit cocktail
whipping cream
1 tin besar slices of peaches
any striking colored fruits: strawberry / dragon fruit / kiwi / grapes

Steps:

1. Potong kek gulung dan letak di dasar bekas triffle
2. Basahkan kek dengan air nata de coco atau air fruit coctail (used nata de coco mango flavored - syedap)

3. Custard pudding:
---Sediakan periuk kecil
---Masukkan semua bahan kecuali esen vanilla, pukul sampai adunan berbuih tanpa api
---Pastu baru letak atas dapur. Panaskan dengan api perlahan dalam 1/2 jam kot, sentiasa kacau
---Dah pekat, biar sejuk sebentar
---Tuang atas kek yang dibasahkan tadi
---Tunggu dalam 10minit

4. Masukkan nata de coco/fruit coctail
---Biar dalam peti sejuk lebih kurang 15-30minit


5. Jelly:
---Campur semua bahan, kacau atas api perlahan sampai gula hancur & adunan likat
---Bila jelly dah suam-suam kuku, tuang atas nata/cocktail tadi
---Biar dalam peti sejuk semalaman

6. esoknya, press the whipping cream ('press' as i used the one for Milo shake tu) [ini optional]
7. Hias dengan buah2 pilihan - peaches, strawberries, dragon fruit, grapes, kiwis, or even dried fruits.
....(can u believe it there're no strawberries in tesco&carrefour at that time?licin ok kt rak dia. nmpak lak dragon fruits, so amik try sat sbb warnanya yg menyerlah itu)...

hasilnya:

credit to asiah for the loves; literally.
dia mmg suka buat mende2 arts cnggini
(habis arts dh tu asiah?)

satu ja triffle yg sempat diabadikan sblm dibaham

*gambar akan di upload sejurus selepas majlis berakhir (erk. kantoi ngelat time org bz. ok daaaaaaa nnti bising plak mommy ai bletiaq) [dh upload pon]

*self note: next time bley try letak jelly dulu before puding kastard, jelly guna 2 peket, dan guna oreo ganti kek

Bila sedara dekat mau kenduri

dekat = dari segi pertalian darah dan geografi (first cousin + sebelah rumah)










memang penat
tak caya?
tengoklah pukul berapa ini entry di published,

iaitu selepas selesai dengan triffle untuk meja pengantin
dan kutip pekakas yang tersadai tak basuh
tu pon ada lagi yang besar2, tak kuaso den nak perabeh semuo ha

tapi ngak apa dong
kerna itu cousin baik banget sma guwe
guwe seneng banget sma dia
guwe cuma kaget, gimana kalo bisuk, guwe ngak bisa punya energi lagik
gimana mao layan tetamunya ya
lagian, kerja lainnya juga mao diberesin
waduh




ohwatdahelamIblubberingabout
ciao
dem majlis ialah esok esok esok bukan lusa tulat tungging...knape aku sdar jam awal2 tadi huhuhuhuhu

p/s: moral of the story: berbaik-baiklah dengan saudara anda, mereka pasti akan rela & senang hati berkorban untuk anda

IIUM dihatiku: bulan Ramadhan

international islamic university of malaysia >_"

Ramadhan sepanjang master program. 

Rindu that particular good old time at UIA. Masjid penuh ja tak kisahla time tarawih or siang2. Pastu every day akan ada pihak yang sponsor berbuka dan aku la antara org yg ternanti2 makanan free tuh hehe. Complete set kot,siap kurma, air ngan buah bagai. Selalu main dish tu nasik la, tapi ada gak roti arab + sup. Yang penting boleh jimat secara pukal ok. Jimat duit, tenaga & masa dari dok belek2 pilih2 juadah berbuka. Lagipun aku kan self-sponsored dulu = no PTPTN nor wang saku from parents, jadi dengan adanya nikmat macamni, mmg aku bersyukur sgt2. Alhamdulillah, moga Tuhan panjangkan rezeki tukang2 sponsor tersebut. Bestnye dorang kan, dahla bley generate double triple pahala blanja orang iftar, siap kena doa dgn yang dibelanja lagi. (Hmm…hopefully one day I’ll be able to do so jugak)

Mende nak citenye, ruang tempat agihan makanan kat underground masjid tu akan start penuh dalam 6.45pm sebab pihak masjid tak bagi orang bwk balik bungkusan mknn tu takut ada yg amek extra. banyak chantek muka kau nk amek lebey. Jadi tempat makan tu akan sesak dgn orang2 yang duduk2 sambil tunggu azan. Kalau lambat, tempat xde & makanan habis. So aku biasanya dlm 6.00pm da terpacak kat bahagian pompuan demi mndapatkan port lepak yg best (i.e bersandar & bukan laluan orang).

ha nila ropenye iftar di masjid UIA di bahagian lelaki, kt blah ladies pon sama je. yang ni menu dia macam roti arab ngan sup. walopon nampak cikai, tapi kenyang, siyes. roti arab kau tau la kn, tebal & padat. ok la tu, kalo kenyang tahap lantakan nasik 2pinggan lauk sepinggan lain mmg tak ah, tu kau stakat buka posa je la, terawih ke mana apa ke mana

(pic copied from here)

Ok masuk part lagi best. 

Segenap ruang tu akan berkumandang dengan alunan muzik al-Quran sebab setiap yang tunggu akan baca tak layan dah org tepi depan belakang. Naturally, bila kita duduk di persekitaran macam tu, automatically kita akan terikut. Bayangkan kalau setiap hari (minus hari exceptional), dari 6.00pm – 7.30pm kau baca Quran…tu tak masuk time lain lagi, ha…tak ke byk page dpt cover. Time tu rasa berkobar2 nakhabis satu Quran, kalau tak capai target rasa ralat je. Memang nikmatlah dapat laju2 gerak page tu. Harus terpengaruh beb, nak2 pak2 mak2 arab tu mmg hantu Quran, dlm bus, LRT pon dorang taram. Oi loike =>

Hati  gelap, lidah berkarat

Tapi kan…sesuatu tabiat ni, bila lama kita tinggalkan, kadang-kadang susah nak di imarahkan balik. Bagi aku, perkara ni sangatlah applicable dengan situasi yang aku sedang alami – tabiat membaca Al-Quran ni lah. Sejak – sejak keluar UIA dah tak habis2 baca. Nak habis macam mananya, sehari nak buka Quran pon susah. malu dekat diri sendiri apehalla sombong sangat dgn tuhan. So, sekarang dh masuk Rejab, aku dok pasangla azam = akan baca Quran SETAKAT TERMAMPU SETIAP KALI SELEPAS SOLAT. Bukan apa, nanti masuk Ramadhan, bila tengok ‘eh, ada lagi half to go je nak buleh khatam ni bestnye bestnye’ jadi semangatla sikit. Bley chelen mak guwe yang mmg slalu khatam time bln posa itew.

TATAPI...

Mmg ah, mmg berkarat kot. Baca pon tak laju. [dahla lupa mana stop dulu - kantoi punya lama tak sentuh Quran sampai lupa tmpt -so aku pon start all over la kn. Tambahan lagi...ya Tuhan....memang liatnyeeeeeeeeeee nk menghadap Quran every time after solah. Setakat hari ke-3 Rejab ni, honestly lepas subuh je baca. Tu pon sebab bangun sahur, so sempatla kan. Tu pon baca tak seberapa, tak lebih 2 lai. Cane nak kejor yop kejor oii. 

Sedih tu memanglah sedih fikir2 balik - blog hopping, facebooking, youtubing, tengok korean drama series suma tu - punya ghalit tak sedar masa berlalu. tapi nk buat ibadat sikit, asyek2 tgk jam, asyek2 belek tengok progress yg rasa mcm 'OMG, banyak lagi ni' padahal baru sekejap tadi start (vs. kalo buat benda lagho selalu ingat 'alah, sikit jew, kejap jew lagi...' padahal dah berjam2). tapi tula kan, bila kita biasa ikut nafsu dan syaitan, rasa berat ja nak buat ibadat tapi senang ja nkleka dunia even kita sedar yang semua tu sia-sia --- tak bagi input bekalan akhirat pon. macam2 alasan timbul punyala liat nak beribadah tu

Nak berubah bukan senang. nak menjadikan Islam sebagai bukan setakat pegangan tapi juga habit bukan boleh dicapai dalam sehari dua. Once kita lalai, setan dok bertenggek la kt hati ni biar gelap gelemat. jadi aku harap sangat-sangat, bulan depan2, tahun depan2, takde lagi keluhan mengada2 diri sendiri yang terlalu leka seronok dunia tapi ibadat terabai. Aku harap sangat - sangat takde lagi karat yang dok balut hati, yang ada hanya Nur terpancar menerangi chewwahh. aamiinnn. 

masjid UIA - Sultan Haji Ahmad Shah Mosque - mahgrib view
see, why i miss uia? 

p/s: cekallah wahai diri. nanti mati xde maknenyelah kpop tu der
p/s/s: wishing for strength & patience in reciting the Quran alongside with the translation, bukan setakat mengejar habis from cover to cover

ultimate teacher: a dedication

you are my first and best teacher
who never let me out of sight
whom I can always trust
when I sometimes go astray
or when walls are upon me
to reach out and hold my back
"watch out, daughter, for each star has its own span
and every maze has its exits"
for that (and more), there is always a spot
in my heart for you that never
can be replaced

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY CIKGU SEPIAH MD ISA 

-Misz Rubz, May 2012

What I did on My Birthday

it's two days late, but still...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

thus becoming older tsk tsk tsk...

ok, what i did on that day, Saturday 12 May 2012:

8.30 - 11.00am - went to kuliyyah of Ust. Mutalib. but honestly, i didnt give 100% attention to the talk as i was busy dealing wth online shopping towards the end (blame that busyuk baby gurl Nyenyet whom the shirts for)

11.30 - 1.30pm - tuition class with the PMR students

2.00 - 8.00pm - at AEON Bandar Perda. the main reason was to get..........

a FACIAL TREATMENT hehehe

by Marco Qi? Dermaplex? uh oh cant remember

the process took about 2 hours. twas my first time, and a present for myself (how sad is that?).  anyways, i L.O.V.E.D it. it felt so good to have your face disental picit urut tekan (yeah it hurts during the picit2 process, but seeing the result = worth every pain) . the best part was the cooling (minty?) teal-colored mask - so refreshing!

and that's how my birthday went. supposedly my family had dinner outside to celebrate it, but i was too exhausted. so it's postponed to...some unnamed date huhuhu

p/s: came across this body massage center located near to the mini foodcourt - perfect for the delayed mother's day treat, right. and will pop the idea to my cousin to bring her mum there as well, so that the 'biras' can have each others' company hehe. perhaps, it'll be after this coming kenduri kahwin so it can a reward for their hard work too. a small but thoughtful reward for those supermoms, ok la kan

tanda2 penuaan

haritu kawan baik aku kata when we're nearing 30s, we'll start having pre-menopausal symptoms. dia cakap time period dia sakit perut perut pelik, lain sikit ngn senggugut yang dia besa kena. mcm sakit ya rabbi gitu. pastu dia tanya aku "ko ade tak jadi mcm tu". aku jwbla "ntah. takde plak.besa2 je" (dgn sdikit nada riak sbb rasa body youthful).

pastu.
kali ni
xdela xsenggugut pon,
tapi berlaku sesuatu yg aku xpernah alami selama ni
sakit pinggang ni mak oii Ya Rabbi....perasaan macam engsel berkarat yang stuck tegak.


nkgerak, tunduk, pusing semua menyeksakan. tunduk ambil kasut sakit, nkpusing belakang sakit, nak pakai spender sakit, nak alih kedudukan tido pon sakit pinggang gak. duduk pun kena tegak, takboleh membongkok. nkgerak alih badan kena slow mo

Adehhh sengalnyee

terus aku teringat keluhan sorang lagi kawan baik aku - dia rasa macam org tua GILE sbb sakit2 pinggang time datang bulan.
kalau begitulah hendaknya,
nampaknya aku juga...........

MENUJU puncak PENUAAN 

uhuk uhuk uhuk...
(baiklah, berazam utk dapatkan khasiat susu omega+ sejak esok)

baca bila leka dunia: peringatan utk wanita

kadang2 bila asyik dgn dunia aku jd leka, lupa diri yg dunia hanya tempat singgah. maka tika itu memo mcm bwh ni sangat sangat penting utk aku sedar diri

*Rasulullah menjawab, "Wahai putriku, adapun mereka yang tergantung rambutnya hingga otaknya mendidih adalah wanita yang tidak menutup rambutnya sehingga terlihat oleh laki-laki yang bukan muhrimnya. 

*Perempuan yang digantung susunya adalah istri yang 'mengotori' tempat tidurnya. 

*Perempuan yang tergantung kedua kakinya ialah perempuan yang tidak taat kepada suaminya, ia keluar rumah tanpa izin suaminya, dan perempuan yang tidak mau mandi suci dari haid dan nifas. 

*Perempuan yang memakan badannya sendiri ialah karena ia berhias untuk lelaki yang bukan muhrimnya dan suka mengumpat orang lain.

*Perempuan yang memotong badannya sendiri dengan gunting api neraka karena ia memperkenalkan dirinya kepada orang yang kepada orang lain bersolek dan berhias supaya kecantikannya dilihat laki-laki yang bukan muhrimnya. 

*Perempuan yang diikat kedua kaki dan tangannya ke atas ubun-ubunnya diulurkan ular dan kalajengking padanya karena ia boleh shalat tapi tidak mengamalkannya dan tidak mau mandi junub. 

*Perempuan yang kepalanya seperti babi dan badannya seperti himar ialah tukang umpat dan pendusta. Perempuan yang menyerupai anjing ialah perempuan yang suka memfitnah dan membenci suami."

Mendengar itu, Sayidina Ali dan Fatimah Az-Zahra pun turut menangis. 
Dan inilah peringatan kepada kaum perempuan. 

sumber: an FB status

Ikan Asam Pedas merah style

sangat suka asam pedas. agak gila bunyinya tapi masa di UIA, selalu ambil kuah masak tempoyak + asam pedas, memang masyuk. tapi kemarin baru pertama kali buat asam pedas (msk tempoyaknya belum juge). senang je sebenarnye ek. tapi yang ni versi merah menyala, yang lagi sesuai dibuat pekat & pedas. yang mak selalu buat tu yg light sikit warna & texture kuah dia, lebih sesuai buat byk kuah utk dihirup slurpp nikmat. baikla, akan cuba buat yang tu nanti2. yang kat bawah ni hasil tangan kemarin tu.

ehh sembunyi lak ikan tuh

BAHAN - BAHAN

* ikan sukahati, kt atas tu 5 ikan kembung (utara kata ikn temenung =)

Kisar sekaligus semua
* 20 cili kering (cili boh/segera xsedap)
* 1 bawang besar
* 3 bawang putih
* 1 inci halia
* 1/2 inci kunyit hidup (serbuk kunyit xsedap)
* sikit belacan (optional, letak lagi sedap)

Kisar sorang dia
* 2 biji tomato (tambah kalau nak lagi pekat, kalau malas blend potong je mcm aku hoho)

Perasa
* air asam jawa/3 asam keping/asam limau ikut sedap
* garam, gula, perasa
* daun kesum
* 1 bunga kantan

Pilihan sayur
* tomato/bendi/terung/nenas/belimbing buluh/mangga muda/daun limau purut/daun buas (wow ganas la sape mkn)

CARA - CARA

1. minyak dalam 3 sudu besar, tumis yg kisar banyak2 tu. HARUS sampai pecah minyak
2. masuk air asam jawa, tomato kisar, air secukupnya
3. dah mendidih, letak ikan, bunga kantan
4. ikan dah masak, masuk bendi, daun kesum, tomato
5. adjust rasa masin manis masam tuh pastu angkat lah

senang woo rugi xtry

sumber: kak wana

bonus: lunch set haritu. very d kampung style hewhew

clockwise: ikan temenung grg tepung, asam pedas, gulai ikan, sambal telur, ulams & sambal belacan

skincare: Cellnique, Caudalie, ZA

still remember your pubescent days? when your body started to develop, your hormones started to change, your emotions began to swirl suma tuh.

i remember that then, everything was about appearance. in our innocence, we started to notice the other gender, try to be cool/mix with popular kids, pay crucial attention to how we look (like, pinned the lipatan kain baju kurung on the upper part so that the lipatan stays kemas - seriously I saw my school mates did this).in other words, we wanted to be accepted, be noticed. but sometimes, the attention was of wrong reason - red (and yellow) oily acne skin.

well not for me. I was blessed with almost non-existent skin problems throughout my secondary school and because of that, i did not care about skincare routine; i didnt even cleanse my face. until...the dark period of my university days.

call it late bloomer ke ape, zits and heads started to sprout especially on my chin/jawline throughout my university years, and then working days. it's like there were permanent roots that continuously produced the fruits (acne fruits; big, spotlight acne---euww). it was so bad, so productive that my chin even till now has uneven surface.

before you label me as a lazy bum, lemme tell ya, i have tried some products as suggested by the promoters and friends (being easily influenced I am). the ones that i remember = mustika ratu (no effect), Simple trial set (OK at first, no effect then), ROC set of the basic 3 (u cheater! dahla quite costly, thus very disappointing), HPA's complete Centella White set (hampeh, left skin oily, mahal, sep bek org blanja).

because of the constant disappointment, i became fed up hence the non stop break outs. the more pressure, the more pimples. most frustratingly, the acne turned up during special occasions i.e weddings, graduation, interviews - perluke kan.

then around Nov last year, went to SASA and again, was suggested with some products. with limited budget (tambah tambah tu jadi RM400+, memang xmampu), i only purchased several items, then headed to Watson's & Jusco to get other affordable items. added up, the range was:



Cleanser
ZA Cleansing Foam
100ml / RM 10 after discount

i just tried my luck using this cleanser, i mean, would you believe in an RM10 item? it turned out that this one was okay ma, it kept my face blemish-free. sadly couldnt find it in store anymore


Toner/Softener
Caudalie Beauty Elixir
30ml / RM 70

LOVE it! mainly because it has natural fragrance and minty sensation, leaving skin all afresh. the other reason is that i couldnt be bothered using cotton pad, so this one is perfect for me - just spray any time of the day

Moisturizer
Cellnique's b.liv Quench Me
45ml/ RM 89

i liked this one too. you know some moisturizer leaves your skin feeling oily. this product absorbs into skin & dries almost immediately. it has fresh (tea tree/green tea) fragrance that i love, but it think it's not natural. downside: not economical - 1 bottle lasts only 2months+/-

Blackhead/Whitehead sebum
Cellnique's b.liv Off With Those Heads
30ml/ RM 149 (free shopping bag & 6 hydration masks)

it works wonders. what heads? not that i know of ;p [confession: i used to worry about the notion of nuzzling my spouse-to-be (whoever he is), like would he be disgusted with my coarse nose etc but not anymore kekeke]. because only a little amount is needed every time, it feels like it'll take forever to finish the bottle - v.good! BUT, have to apply everyday - one day miss = confirmed new b/heads - hmm not v.good then

sunblock
Banana Boat Ultra Faces 30SPF++
90ml/ RM 32.90

Dries almost immediately on skin, seriously. you can apply make up without having to wait long. but who needs cosmetics when your skin is your best make up, right? (flawless skin satu, ikat tepi ek)

hydration mask
cellnique's b.liv Immerse Me
got them free - 6 masks worth RM 6 each

the best part is the overflow serum that i can reuse it to replace moisturizer for about 4 times. but still the effect after using the mask was not that apparent.


overall result:

HAPPY! no idea which items actually worked, but my skin was acne free for almost 2 months. TWO months with not even pre-menstrual acne, ok.

the downside is, they (except OWTH, sunblock) finished too soon, and that's with me using a little as i can for each. hmm...not good for my economy then. and truthfully my face is still yet to achieve the desired effect - no visible pores, freckles free, even, fully hydrate etc. ohhh jelesnye tengok kulit orang shantek.

test lagi

sekarang ni trend akan melalui first test dulu ek sebelum interview? hayo keringle poket gue...kena dtg buat test tu, pastu kalau pass baru pi interbiu. 2 kali kerja & sgt sgt merugikan diriku yg kurang income ini. tu kalau pass test, kalau tak, tak ke lagi rugi.

btw, kemarin (atau semalam ikut standard KL) chek pi test kt midah...ala... Malaysian Investment Development Authority...chek panggey midah ja la no, mesra a'lam sket. chek pi utk post pustakawan s41.

tu la nk habaq ni...test tu mashaAllah...punya chek tidoq taklena makan taklalu mandi terlebih basah dok pikiaq apalaaa depa nak tanya. depa ada la suruh telaah website midah & isu semasa. nakhabaq bagi, pasai ekonomi. maka chek yang takdak economic background ni memanglah berasa amat sukar sekali.

malam sebelum pi test punyala xlena tidoq chek. ya la, dengan nakbaca nota tapi byknya nota la yang baca chek. tapi takpa chek tau nota tu redo. mesti nota tu kata dlm hati nota dia 'kesian budak ni, penat dia datang dari penang jauh tu. takpela bia aku jela yg studi pasai dia' (ok whatever)

pagi tu chek pi dgn matlamat..'takpala nati aku bulat jela yg MCQ tu'.sekali tau apa yg kuaq.. ha, ini dia. chek tulis dia punya gist ja sbb chek xhengat ayat penuh depa

ESSAY ok essay
section A = choose 1 topic, write about :
1. something about tak ingat
2. malaysia's potential in one of the services sectors (tourism, education, heatlh)
3. how to influence a company to invest in a manufacturing sector in malaysia (chose this one, xtaula cana)

section B = write all (one in BM)
1. peranan pustakawan yg bertanggungjwab dalam penyelenggaraan koleksi perpustakaan
2. how can Current Awareness  Service act as an enhanced service of a special library

kesimpulannya chek berserah saja nohhh. ada rezki kena panggey chek bersyukur alhamdulillah. takkena panggey kalu chek bengang gak a redo dgn ucapan 'rezki kita ada di mana2, tunggu masa dia saja tuhan nkbagi'